Thank you all so much for adding your thoughts. Sometimes it's hard to be rational when your heart is so involved, so I appreciate you all adding perspective. To answer your questions, he's 33 and I'm 30. And here's what makes this situation even harder and more confusing: he's absolutely perfect in every other way. He's kind, gentle, affectionate, funny, and the list goes on. I think the thing that bothers me the most is how he tells me that I'm so different from other women he's dated because I'm sweet (and probably a little naive, though he's never said that part). Sometimes I think sweet must be interchangeable with "doormat". I'm not all that sexually experienced, but I'm willing to try a lot of things. I guess it hurts me so much because it feels like he likes porn stars because they're so completely different than me. And if that's the case, why does he like me? The truth is, I don't care if he thinks porn, porn stars, strippers, celebrities, whoever is hot. But I just wish he didn't feel the need to tell me that. I'm not sure he grasps the whole concept of "just because you think it doesn't mean you have to say it", LOL. As much as I don't want to do it, if he and I can't get this resolved soon, I probably am going to head for the door. As much as I like him, and as perfect as he is in every other way, I can't be with someone who makes me feel so badly about myself. I just deserve more, ya know?