Good morning Tyger. I read your post concerning your relationship that just ended. I feel for any relationship that ends because at some point it was special and full of visions of happy times through the years. I am proud of our 35yrs and with all relationships there have been difficulties. Just got into toys this year. Needed something because she had become unhappy with sex. Now it's like new again and I can't see it getting boring with the ability to utilize different toys. Thing is, I got into reading the forums and find myself turned on by some of the conversations. I even made a comment in "would it make you hot if". So am I now a heel for doing so? Feels sort of like cheating. There was a time my wife would not have even considered toys; too taboo. She's never been into anything but the same routine and thus the boredom with sex. However, she is like a new person with these rabbit vibrators. I've read your posts on different subject matters and find myself wondering what it would be like to have an occasion with a woman that seems to really enjoy sex the way you seem to. So yeah, here I am creating fantasies. So after your breakup and your statement towards men in general, I feel I have let my wife down by engaging in conversations in these forums as you feel you were let down. Why, because I find myself really wanting to experience such an occasion. I think to myself at least just once, but I also know that once you do something usually you want to do it again and again. So I have never went there in the physical world; only in my mind. Not sure if anyone wants a 55yrold anyway; as you stated, you're now a cougar. Therefore, from your point of view, am I the heel, typical male for engaging in flirtatious conversations in these forums?