MrsJames

Since I became sexually active, it's been meaningless. For 5 years, it was guys I barely knew who only talked to me when they wanted me to come over for the night. It was dangerous and sometimes humiliating. I was so naive to what I was doing to myself mentally. Then I met my man and that changed. We've been together 4 years and have a son together and it just seems like our sex life is so stagnant. It's all about speed and getting off. I want something deeper. We've tried tantric sex and it was just awkward. He's just not that kind of guy but I want to be that type of woman. How do I reach him on that level? I really want to try new things but even after 4 years, it's still very hard to be sexually vulnerable. Anyway it seems like when I am on that level, he's not, we lose the intimacy and it becomes about the speed and getting it done. Sorry for the essay.. Any advice would be amazing. Thank you.

Hi everyone, this is my first time on ANY forum like this. Was raised by a super religious, introverted, anti social dad who saw anything sexual as tabboo so now, while I LOVE having intimate time with my man and I love feeling vulnerable with him, when I do things alone, it feels dirty. Iit has affected my relationship with my husband (it's gotten worse since I became a mom, as if I feel bad for feeling any sort of sexuality at all. Anyway. Trying new things and trying to branch out and break myself away from the way I was raised. Hoping it all goes smoothly. ThNks for letting me vent.