TLan387

the other day I went to visit the massage spa and decided to get another happy ending.I didn't get the whole thing this time, just oral and a handjob. nevertheless, my DE got the best out of me once again. luckily the masseuse was nice enough to not rush me, but boy did she had to work hard to make me ejaculate.something is telling me that this is all just anxiety, its very similar to the anxiety I feel when urinating in public but more intense. I'm guessing is this idea that I always had that women find men ejaculating in plain view very disgusting and repulsing and that only women in porn love to see and feel semen. therefore whenever i'm doing it with someone these thoughts creep into my head so my anxiety prevents me from easily ejaculating. sometimes I feel so anxious that I even feel a slight pain and discomfort when I finally cum and have difficulty getting an erection hours after the event.anyways I think the only way I can fix this is by having someone convince me that women in porn aren't the only ones that crave for semen. if I can just convince myself I can get over this anxiety. if not then oh well, at least it serves me as a build in stamina-booster.

the other day I went to visit the massage spa and decided to get another happy ending. I didn't get the whole thing this time, just oral and a handjob. nevertheless, my DE got the best out of me once again. luckily the masseuse was nice enough to not rush me, but boy did she had to work hard to make me ejaculate. something is telling me that this is all just anxiety. for quite a while now I always had this idea that women find men ejaculating in plain view very disgusting and repulsing and that only women in porn love to see and feel semen. therefore whenever I'm doing it with someone these thoughts creep into my head so my anxiety prevents me from easily ejaculating. I also tend to moan pretty loud when I ejaculate while doing it so this kinda makes me feel insecure. I feel like only pussies moan loud when they cum. anyways I think the only way I can fix this is by having someone convince me that women in porn aren't the only ones that crave for semen. if I can just convince myself I can get over this anxiety. if not then oh well, at least it serves me as a build in stamina-booster. till then do women really enjoy it? if I get this in my head will it help me get over this stigma?