Stella1976

Please don't be disappointed in me. I admit to you that I like to be dominated by my groper ginger colleague . It is an incredible feeling. To have my breasts and butt groped by this groper ginger colleague is very very exciting . I like to take all my decisions and i like to be dominant but i discovered this big part of me that wants someone to have power over me and take control of me. Part of it for me is my groper ginger colleague having control and authority over me.. My groper ginger colleague calls me big woman. She always says that i am such a big woman. She is always joking that, because she is always in flat shoes and i am always on high heels, standing next to me she looks like a midget. I am 5ft10 tall and that, coupled with being well built and well endowed ( i can carry a few extra pounds without looking tubby), makes me feel like a giant beside her. But i am shocked that am getting a sort of meta-pleasure out of the abandonment and handing over of my body, delight being used for these short skinny old ginger woman groper's pleasure. I wish I could explain it better but can only express the feelings inside me in my poor humble way. It is like is instilled in my mind now, that i am there for my ginger colleague who wants to grope me. Actually I look forward to her groping me and slapping my ass. . And this predatory ginger colleague groper is physically completely harmless. She is not tough and strong. She doesn't look intimidating. She is creepy and masculine but she is just a short, skinny, tiny old woman. I am physically stronger than her.I admit that being passive and powerless liberates me from the stress of proper behaviour. I abandoned all that stressful responsibility for my own actions. Why? For some reason i cannot, do not, fight this women off as i would some male who groped me or slapped my ass. It is almost an out-of-body experience, watching myself allowing her hands to crawl over me. I get lesbian pleasure out of this, but I am strictly heterosexual - i am not a closet lesbian. To my surprise, I have found I like to be dominated by this ginger weirdo colleague woman. I get direct sexual pleasure out of this short skinny creepy woman's groping and slapping my ass. I have eroticised the passive suffering of the repulsive treatment i get. But WHY? As far as having intimacy with a woman? That's just something that I haven't done and will probably not do so. Im a straight woman never got turned on by a women. But how can I be a 100% straight and still enjoy this? There is a state I get into that I am struggling to understand.There are some things I don't know how to describe to you. I admit to you that it turns me on that this older ugly short skinny masculine ginger colleague woman that would not even be anywhere near my league is so dominant and aggressive with me . It seems as though this groper woman targeted me from the very beginning. She took on a very dominant personality almost immediately. She also took the initiative in groping me, slapping my ass and humiliating me at work in a way that made her seem very confident. Am I am enjoying the secret me, that likes to be groped and spanked. It is almost an out-of-body experience. . I have never been groped by a strange man. Probably because of my bitch resting face. When I have a blank expression people assume that I'm in a bad mood. I mean yeah, I do get pissed off sometimes, but not always. I could just sitting here minding my own business and feel just fine and then someone would ask if I'm alright or if something is wrong. Like, bitch I was fine until you bothered me. People ask what's wrong, but I'm just bored or not smiling. But this weird, ugly, ginger, midget woman is so confident. Maybe that is why i am so submissive to her. Maybe i secretly like being publicly humiliated. This handsy short uglyish woman is not physically threatening to me at all, and the chances that she can actually rape me are virtually nil. To be honest I find this colleague ginger woman groper ugly and repulsive. She looks like a short skinny ugly effeminate man. But i admit to you that i sexual pleasure and it turns me on that this ugly short skinny woman who is basically everything i am not is groping me, rubbing me, slapping my ass at work while i just stand there stiff as a board. I figured out that i feel safe with this midget ginger groper because she is ugly, hideous and repulsive to me. Also i am strictly hetero. But if a handsome attractive man starts groping me, rubbing me, pressing his cock against my butt, i will get super aroused. And i don't want to cheat on my husband. I have never ever considered cheating before, and always saw it as something horrible. So i am using this weirdo colleague groper woman. I am a logical, thinking woman, college-educated. So i accept that this is something I need. I accept and embrace this need. It allows me to let my guard down and be free. To me, being able to surrender to my ginger groper colleague shows that I have self-confidence and self esteem as woman. But i will never have intimate relationship with her. It is harmless.

I do not see myself as a victim.I really enjoy having my breasts and ass touched by this ugly skinny ginger midget woman , so I love this. When her hands are grabbing or slapping my ass or squeezing and rubbing my breasts i get groinal responses. I know you can't help feelings of arousal, but what bothers me is i worry about letting myself enjoy them. It makes me feel really excited and everything.I know that this doesn't mean that I'm gay as such, because I've had sex with men and I like men! I'm so worried that this isn't normal! So i feel like since i get my feelings of arousal from the groinal responses then i'm a bisexual cheating whore. Is this normal or am i horrible?? I think i'm a a slut. I'm 100% percent straight. I'm not attracted to this ugly short skinny ginger woman colleague or anything. Please give me some advice!!!!!!!!! This ginger woman colleague groper says I'm one of the best colleagues she's ever had and I have so much potential, she's got so many plans for me..I don't get it! It makes my working life very awkward. I am a 42year old woman. What is wrong with me? Basically, I'm at the point where my self-esteem and confidence in myself has eroded to where i don't trust myself. Why is this happening to me? What could be the possible reasons? Am I just an easy target for this weird coworker? Do you think that she is a sociopath? I am like paralyzed while this colleague groper old short skinny woman is touching me and groping me.I like it. I don't know why, but I do. I am just sitting and standing there kind of awkwardly letting it happen. Even i am unable to speak coherently.I am going “ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm” ” errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrr” for ages and ages while she is rubbing me and groping me. It almost makes me come. I’m so ashamed that I can’t even say no or push this short skinny old coworker woman away. I have large boobs and big butt, and some men like to tell me about them. Men talk about them a lot, but no man ever dares to touch them. If he did I would tell him to fuck off. If he did I would scream. If he did I might even report it. It is all my fault. I am letting this woman colleague to walk all over me on a daily basis. I don't want my husband to found out of that situation with this groper colleague woman.

This woman my friendly ginger midget coworker gets away with groping me all the time, simply because i let her. Instead of outrage, i feel a strange, paralyzing shame. Instead of immediately and publicly denouncing her, i try to defuse the situation as quietly as possible, as if the guilt is my own. What is wrong with me? My mind hasn't been able to think straight in months. This creepy short skinny ginger woman my colleague hasn't pushed me into having sex so far. It's just the obsessive touching me and groping me. Like she can't keep away from me. She is taking advantage of me, and i am afraid that she will just go even further. But whenever her hands are slapping or rubbing my ass or feeling up my breasts, I get super aroused. I get all melty, and part of the pangs come from the fact that I (a) know I shouldn't feel this way in a public setting and (b) it's this ugly ginger midget woman doing it. (I consider myself 100% straight) This has been going on for over three months now. The most distressing is the fear that I am or will become a cheating whore. I spend lots of time every day ruminating over why I cannot be a cheating whore, and why I could be. At times I'm convinced I'm a slut. I guess the point of writing this is to see if anyone can relate and set me at ease -- even for a little while! . I tower over plenty of men and women. I love my height and my curvy stature. I love satin and silk clothes and dressing up too. I am always in high heels with hair and makeup done. That’s just who I am. I love dressing up, I’ve tried dressing down, but I always end up changing. My clothes are there to be worn! People always ask me why I’m so dressed up. I always like to dress on my best, because I also feel great when I’m dressed pretty. Once, i’d been to the hairdressers and was off to do a little shopping afterwards and the girl at the salon asked where i was going looking so glamorous – i said i was going shopping and she was like “really? You look so glammed up to be going shopping!” I don’t mind though, i’d rather be wearing something i feel good in than look like i just rolled out of bed. I am uncomfortable in social settings and it takes me a while to feel comfortable around other people. I've been asked soooo many times 'Why are you so serious?' when I'm not feeling serious at that moment. I unintentionally tend to give off an unfriendly aura which has led people to ask if I dislike them. When I feel nervous I try to compensate by being really confident. I guess other people take that as me being arrogant. I've been told I come across as stuck up/snobby full of myself, narcissistic, stuck up etc., and also very unwelcoming to new people. Technically the second part is true as new people terrify me, but the first bit is very untrue. And the truth is, i just can't talk to everyone... not that i don't want to. I just need time to open myself to people. To relax and open up. I hate that I come off like that. When I do speak with people, I tend to be overly nice to compensate and I guess that comes off as fake which definitely doesn't help the situation. People around me (except for the ones who truly know me) have always said that I come across as snobby, stuck on myself, and unfriendly. The truth is, I'm just really shy and insecure when it comes to socializing with people. I do have several close friends, but it bugs me that A LOT of people think I'm a snob when that couldn't be further from the truth. I have been told that I seem snobby and it is because I don't speak up in groups where I am not comfortable. I have had people ask me if I thought I was better than others. Since this woman friendly groper coworker is so openly groping me,rubbing me, humping me in a joking/playful way in front of other women at work, they probably think that i am okay with that.This woman groper is well liked and respected at work. Being well-liked at work means there's more people on your side.

I was very reluctant to register here but I've been dealing with these feelings for a while now and I feel like there's no one I can talk to. I am a 42 year old heterosexual woman. What is wrong with me? My husband and I have been married for 12 years and have a 11year old daughter! I am 5ft10 tall heterosexual curvy hourglass shaped attractive brunette. I have very large breasts(32GG) and i do have a big butt. I don't intend to dress in any particular 'way' for anyone. I just wear what I like. I don't 'ask' for anything. I don't ask to be groped. I wear clothes that fit me properly. Most of my outfit are satin pant and skirt suits satin coats and satin and silk blouses. I am always on high heels and full make up on. If you are curvy, tall and busty, many clothes tend to look sexier on you than on a thin person. So things that fit properly that are relatively conservative can be suddenly too revealing and sexy when you put it on. This happens to me a lot. I wear almost always my satin and silk blouses fully buttoned to the top combined with a satin skirt or satin pants. I don't wear anything vulgar but because of my body type anything i wear looks tight on me. Being tall and curvy draws attention on its own. This can be both positive and negative. I tower over plenty of men and women. I was sexualised from a very early age, and shamed for the way my body looks - something I have no control over. I can't help how wide my hips grow or how big my breasts get. My mother used to shame me for the way my body looked. If I wanted to wear a skirt or dress, she always discouraged it, she always thought my skirt was 'too short' or 'too tight', or there was something wrong with my dress-sense. There's always guys flirting or asking me for my number. When I go out in public guys start talking to me and subtly try to ask me out. I mention I have a husband but some of them wont go away. I have trouble being mean so i cant get them to leave me alone. I end up getting stressed by it. The irony is that all this time I've been afraid of men, perceiving any touch as a sexual advance that I should fear - when really, it was a short, skinny old woman I should have feared. My story just seems so implausible that I feel I won't be believed. Three months ago i started working at this accounting firm. It is all female workplace. Other 14 employees are women in their 40s and 50s. Other women there, my coworkers, think that i am stuck up and arrogant upper middle class snob. I feel like these women don't really like me.I am considered by most of other women my coworkers to be very serious, arrogant, and stuck up. One woman group member has described me as a snob on about half a dozen occasions. I still don't really know why. I know on one of those occasions it was because I turned down the offer to go to a coffee with her after work. How not wanting to go somewhere makes me a snob, I don't know. One woman always comments on my clothing saying that i am always overdressed in satin and silk clothes and glammed up. I am dressing like this since i graduated college and got my first office job. It is my whole wardrobe. Its how i like to dress myself and that is my style. It sucks to see your coworkers do group lunches everyday and not be included. And it's not just lunches that I'm not included in. These women my coworkers are the most gossipy, nitpicking, backstabbing group I have ever come across. They are so quick to tattletale on you for some of the most minor things and chastise you. I'm confident that I look good in my clothes my style is "sexy but classy" I don't believe I have ever offended or embarrased myself or anyone with my wardrobe. I am a very classy woman and i would never dress in a cheap trashy way. I have noticed that at times I apologize for the size of my boobs. Being tall and curvy draws attention on its own. This can be both positive and negative. I tower over plenty of men and women. I love my height and my curvy stature. I love satin and silk clothes and dressing up too. I am always in high heels with hair and makeup done. That’s just who I am. Only one woman my coworker is friendly with me. She is skinny really short like 5 ft 3 freckled face creepy green eyes thin lips red haired masculine 53year old woman. But for some reason, she feels entitled to touch, squeeze or jiggle my breasts and to rub and slap my ass. On my second day there in the office restroom she said "Wow! Your breasts are sooo large! Can i touch them" AS she was already grabbing and squeezing them! I just said it looks like you are already touching them. In the moment, I found myself laughing it off. And this woman is really short, her head is exactly the level of my breasts. Since then this woman my friendly coworker thinks she can just walk up and feel my boobs or grab my ass when ever she feels like it!! She routinely slaps or rubs my butt. She loves to squeeze or jiggle my breasts and tell me how soft and squishy they are. She thinks they are toys. She often hugs me around my waist and then proceeds to hump me (From behind usually but sometimes from the front). Usually it happens when no one is around in the restroom, in the hallway, by the watercooler or on the parking lot. I hate that i have grown accustomed to it. I am physically stronger than her. I am 5ft10 tall well built well endowed and curvy.She is like 5ft3 tall skinny. I am always on high heels she is always in sneakers. Standing next to me she looks like a midget. One of the weirdest things that's ever happened to me: I used to have zero feeling in my breasts when this ginger midget was groping them -- and then over time I developed sensation! And now it's INSANE. I enjoy it.It almost makes me come. Having my ass grabbed and my breasts squeezed, jiggled and massaged(over clothes) by this ugly short ginger woman is something I like. What is wrong with me? I am a straight woman, I love men, simple! I am straight and I am completely 100 percent straight. I have never been attracted to a woman sexually. I am STRICTLY hetero. Even the thought of eating out a vagina makes me gag. I've never had any desire to do anything sexual with a female. Also this ginger groper coworker is ugly and repulsive to me. I always laugh uncomfortably and try to be as dismissive of the situation as possible when this short skinny ginger woman coworker is groping me. . I know other women my coworkers probably laugh at me behind my back because of this situation with this ginger woman groper colleague. One woman coworker said to me that I make stupid faces while this woman groper is groping me and humping me. She also said that it is bizarre that standing next to the groper I look like a giant and I let her get by with it. I just laughed and replied to this woman that we (me and friendly groper coworker) just have a weird bond like that. Other women my coworkers probably think that I am okay with it. This friendly coworker says to me that because her face is at level with my breasts and I am rather large she finds touching, squeezing, rubbing, and patting them and resting her head on them comforting. She said that she finds great comfort doing this when she’s stressed. She always places her hand on my ass when I stand beside her. When she gives me hugs she tries to bury her head into my breasts. She will just randomly grab them. If she needs comfort she will tell me “I gotta rub your boobs”. If I just stand there, she would stay there for a long time just feeling them and squishing my breasts or whatever. Also she will just full on grab my butt. I’m just standing there, and she’ll walk by me and take a swipe at my butt. Should I feel ashamed of myself? Is this normal/what can I do to make it stop? This ugly creepy ginger midget is my groper with benefits. I have the desperate need to have my breasts and ass groped by her. Background: my boobs are rather sensitive, but this has never really been something I was experiencing before. I love my husband and he loves me so much. We have a wonderful and caring marriage. We hug and kiss and don't care about showing our love to the world. But, Over the past four years or so my husbands sex drive as been super low. To the point where if he doesn't initiate sex, we don't have sex more than once every month unless I initiate it. He loves sex, and it's very easy for me to turn him on and get things going, the problem is is that I'm getting tired of being the only one to initiate it. He tells me he thinks I'm beautiful and sexy all the time, but sexually I feel undesired and like he no longer finds me attractive to the point of wanting to have sex with me. I have mentioned this to him countless times, and in our conversations we both cry, he apologizes and reaffirms his love and affection for me. He promises to be better because he claims he wants sex. He's just tired, or doesn't think of it, or something. The thing is, we have had this conversation so many times and nothing has changed. I don't want to hurt my husband and I don't know what to do. .This groper ginger colleague is more friendly than other women my coworkers. She frequently invites me to have lunch or join her for feminist workshop . She texts me at random times to ask if she can drop by to say hello. But she rubs and strokes my breasts and rubs my ass talking about random stuff regularly. She also will kind of... hold me from behind with her hands on my breasts very tightly in a way that I can't move, even when I'm trying to get away from her. She can't resist either grabbing and squeezing my breasts or ass or rubbing up behind me... and it's awesome for me. It turns me on. Whenever this ugly ginger midget is grabbing or slapping my ass or squeezing and feeling up my breasts... I melt. All i know is that i'm not a lesbian (not that i have anything against lesbians or gay people) it just isn't for me. Anyway, is this normal for a straight woman?