Thanks and I'm sorry for your loss. I'm still in school and have been single for around a year. Allot of people (not so much here) have told me to get into a relationship with someone that's into this or that to teach me. Problem is I dont want to be in a relationship until I'm at least out of college. So sex right now is just for sex and I just feel guilty I guess because I was told it was wrong. Throw in the weird stuff I fantasize about I guess it would be way past wrong. But I still fantasize about it.