Sarahangel

I just dumped my worst lover EVER a month ago!! I stayed with him for 7 months, he wasn't attractive or anything but I had enjoyed his company and he is black so I went into this thinking... OMG he's gonna be HUGE.. When we finally slept together and he whipped it out It took everything I had not to laugh, and when he would stroke himself to get hard... he only used his thumb and one finger to do it. It was also crooked and not in a good way.. and when he'd finger me, he'd finger me dry, would never dip his fingers in to lubricate them and actually hurt me so bad my Clit was swollen for 3 days and I had a blister on the inner part of my Vagina... made peeing very painful for a few days. He is so small that it did nothing for me, I never could orgasm with regular sex, he always had to perform Oral on me, before, during and after I would do all the work to get him off. He really ever only liked me on top, but I got him to do Doggy style and reverse cowgirl to spice it up.. but nothing worked and he would just lay there and let me do all the work then complain that I always forced him to do oral on me... I never forced him.. but I would get angry when he'd have 3 orgasms and just leave me hanging. Sometimes I'd just want to cuddle with him and he'd just whip out his Micro Cock and be like... Blow me... then he would demand I take him to get something to eat afterwords... He doesn't have a car or a license so I was his sex toy & Chauffeur. Plus he lived with his uncle and never took me out.. I gave up and dumped him... but now its looking like I may be stuck with this douche bag seeing as after our last encounter.. I might be knocked up... YA ME.............NOT!!!

Haha you are so right.. I need to pick a better set of guys... I dated this guy Brian for 7 months, tried really hard to make it work but he just was a big fat Liar and very immature and really rude so I dumped him. I mean He doesn't have a car or a license so I always had to go pick him up for our dates and what not.. However its been about a month since the last time I had miserable sex with him and dumped him.. now I am worried that I might be pregnant by him. Not that I don't want to be pregnant... Lord knows I want a baby bad... just not with my Ex... and not when I am getting ready to move out of state. I've not really had A true orgasm at all.. And I guess it is because I am in love with my neighbor... have been for 2 years and all because he led me to believe there was something between us by making out with me in secret a couple nights a week.. He never once mentioned his pregnant girlfriend and I found out about her the day she pulled up to his house 9 months pregnant and he kissed her when he came out to meet her... didn't see me sitting on my porch. Anyhow her and the baby now live with him and as stupid as this sounds... I totally in love with him even though he told me to leave him alone last 4th of July after he came home wasted and made out with me on the hoof of his car... all of the sudden he's e-mailing me on myspace telling me to leave him alone... that he had a girlfriend who didn't want him talking to me. Its funny he's never told me to my face to leave hm alone or that he hates me... its always by myspace... he's a coward lol. I guess I have fantasized so much about being with my neighbor that its ruining my sex life?? OR that I am not allowing myself to thoroughly enjoy sex because its not with him?? I don't know how to get over him when I see him every damn day looking so unbelievably sexy.. especially when he's playing with his daughter... I've actually almost fought with his girlfriend a couple times now lol. Wow I am screwed up lol!! I welcome any advice )

Hey Again.. I know I was shocked when I saw this Show on HBO called "Pornucopia" and the porn stars talked about faking it and rarely having actual orgasms on camera. It really made me wonder what it is really like, and how the orgasms really feel. Yeah I know he could pay for the room but he always says no, So I gotta settle for my room no matter what.. I guess I can be honest and say that he's just a fuck buddy... he comes over when I want him to basically. Okay so the guy friend that I've been talking about.. his name is Aaron... he's pretty good to me, the guy that came over last night his name is Adam and he was a total dud. First of all I have been with him before... the first time was wham! Bam! thank you ma'am!! Meaning I gave him a 2 second blow job and he fucked me for all of 5 minutes before he came, rolled over and went to sleep like he thought he could just spend the night. I'd been really upset at him for doing that to me so after alot of begging from him, I gave him another shot... which is why I let him come over last night... He said he comes really fast the first time and so I gave him a quick blow job.. he said he'd need a few minutes before we could get to the sex... I said okay... and then he fell asleep, pushed me out of my bed and I sat at my computer desk and watched him sleep for 3 hours...I was truly pissed off.. and got even more pissed off everytime he'd wake up and I'd tell him to leave because he'd go back to bed... I finally got him to leave and once he was gone I pulled out my vibrator and had some fun. Aside from Aaron who always is trying to help me come faster and have better orgasms... the rest of my sexual experiences have been horrible.. I am always left hanging unfortunately... so that's why I came back here to this forum.. I want to have better sex, orgasms and everything inbetween.

Hey Mikayla1, Thanks for responding... to answer your questions... Yes I do masturbate with my hand and with my Rabbit Vibrator... And no they are not intense... the ride to the orgasm is better than the actual orgasm pretty much. And your right about me having an orgasm built up in my mind as some great, huge experience.. I watch alot of porn when I was a virgin and I always imagined orgasming like the girls did in porn movies. I would love to take my guy friend somewhere private like a motel room where we'd have nothing to worry about at all, but a room costs money and I don't get paid to take care of my grandmother... I suppose the stress of the day to day drama I experience in the house I live in plays a role too. I do share my room with my cousin and so when I masturbate its rushed and done in our private bathroom.Its not easy living here and I am usually exhausted by the end of the day so when I masturbate or I am with my guy friend I am usually pretty exhausted. The other night when my guy friend did me doggy style he rubbed my clit with his fingers and that felt so awesome... I was in heaven when he did that!! He's coming over right now for another round.. so I'll let you know how it goes

Hey all, I know my name says Virgin Girl... but I lost my virginity a few months back... But I don't think I've had a single orgasm... I know the night I lost my virginity it took an hour for my guy friend to get me off... and when he did I squirted like a mad woman and it sorta felt good... but after words when we were laying there I didn't feel satisfied... We tried many positions and I have two that I like.... Doggy Style... and a Position where he put me on my side and he faced me but up on his knees with my left leg over his shoulder... that position was just awesome but he never stayed in one position long enough for me to cum. I've been with him and other guys and I really don't think I've had an orgasm... And I think I know why... because I am scared of being caught by my grandmother and other family members that I live with.. But I heard that the thrill of getting caught is supposed to be a turn on... Oh and I also have a bunny vibe that I try and try to come with but All I get out of it is a so so clitoral orgasm... not really all that strong... Is there something wrong with my body? or am I just cursed with so so orgasms?? Is there anything I can do to help me achieve stronger orgasms... ya know that kind that make your whole body shake and all that good stuff??

Soap Opera?? how is the question I asked a soap opera?? that post was so hard to write because I wasn't sure if it was right of me to be talking to my mom about sex I was afraid of getting laughed at..not only do you assume my mother is an Illegal Immigrant that speaks little or no spanish but you call her situation a soap Opera!! Well excuse me for thinking I could come here and ask for advice... That is rude and hurtful and now i'm afraid to ask the other questions I had about sex because if just asking for simple advice on how to talk to my mom about sex get's her situation called a soap opera lord knows what other hurtful things you will say to me if I ask the other questions I had... NEVER AGAIN AM I POSTING HERE!!!

Oh and as to why I didn't OMIT the facts about my mom in my original post....I mentioned all her problems before in the other topics i've started...didn't want to sound like a broken record, and I guess I shouldn't have assumed anyone would remember it.....

I know you didn't mean it to be, but your assumptions about my mother offended me because she is nothing like you say... My mom does not think of herself as Mexican.....She thinks of herself as AMERICAN..a damn proud one too!!! and the immigration status comment...ooh that just hurt because she is a legal resident of the united states as am I and my siblings and we are damn proud of that too!! Yes we are catholic...we go to church, we believe in god ~ that part is true My mom DOES NOT live and think in spanish..She may be from Mexico and called it home for the first 16 years of her life...BUT SHE HATES IT!!! Its not her center of being either. Knowing the people she was friends with when I was growing up masturbated (I have them to thank for knowing what a Vibrator was by the time I was 9) tells me she knows Vibrators and dildo's exist Some of the halloween costumes she used to wear....damn she might as well have been wearing a bra and underwear... I just know she's masturbated even if its just with her fingers!! Yes she is going through Menopause...she was pre-menopausal when some cysts were found in her ovaries when she was about 43...the Ovary was removed...5 years later a tumor the size of a newborn baby's head was found on the remaining ovary It had cancer in it...but it hadn't spread beyond the core of the tumor so she had a hysterectomy and she is healthy... She has a psychiatrist that she's seen only once...and the Doctor she had before this idiot she had my entire life..but all he did was feed her Xanax...and she always would tell me she was afraid to talk to him...but she faithfully had sessions with him for 20 something years... I tell her that she needs a good psychiatrist that she's not afraid to open up too...especially when she told me one day that she remembers always going to stay with her god parents whenever my grandma had another baby...she remembers seeing her friend being touched by the guy and watching from the window as her friend just looked at her for help..I ask her if she remembered being touch but she doesn't, she really didn't remember much about being there but all of the sudden she's having these memories... I told her that all her bad experience with sex...like the possible molestation via her godfather..the man on the bus that flashed his penis at her when she was about 11, her 2 attempted rapes..all that affects how she perceives men and the act of love making...I told her that she won't be happy with a man if she's afraid of sex...of course she says there's more to a relationship than sex..which is true...but I came back with... How do you expect to hold onto a man if you don't let him love you completely...you can't say I love you but your never going to have sex with me... Anyways my mom would slap you silly Howard if you had said those things to her in person!!!

Hey Everyone.... I recently had a really bad stiff neck and my stepdad offered to massage some icy hot on it or me...all he was doing was smothering it on but damn I was laughing hysterically and pushing his hands away because I couldn't handle it. my sides and feet are just as ticklish..So even when i'm teasing myself I start giggling so it got me thinking.... Being as severely ticklish as I am... how the hell would I survive foreplay?? I mean if all the spots my guy would kiss and lick me to get me going are sensative like that my laughing would definately spoil the mood right?? is being extremely ticklish a good thing or a bad thing??

Thanks Everyone for the great advice... I know my mom has issues with sex stemming from two attempted rapes that occured before I was born, and even some possible molestation that may have occurred as a child..and various other incidents where grown men tried to touch her then theres the fact that my father apparently cheated on her several times... And that its also why she is uncomfortable with the topic..and often says she doesn't like it... Believe me she enjoyed sex when I was younger...when I think back I realize my parent's bedroom door was locked alot....and with my stepdad...they used to have sex quite a bit, often calling me into the room the next morning asking for bottles of water...and when I'd walk in they were sweaty and naked...my mom doesn't care if I see her naked so her flashing me was always the dead giveaway lol. of course I was always teasing saying things like... "Dear god mother I do not want to see your tits!!" but then my stepdad would be like "But they're so pretty" So I'd leave the room in stitches. Anyways I think because I'm still a virgin and never been in a relationship she feels i'm clueless about it, but i've started dropping subtle hints in our conversations that I know a thing or two about sex even though i've never had it. She asked me two nights ago if I really thought she could find a good man even though she's over wieght ...I told her that hell yeah she could but that she has to start getting out of the house..go out with Our neighbor and good friend. Then she was like I would marry a gay guy...he could have his boyfriend or whatever but we'd be married and be bestfriends because thats all I want...No offense to gay men and women (which by the way I am cool with because my aunt is a Lesbian and I love her and her partner...they are very cool people) but I told my mom that would be pathetic...well the idea that she's so desperate for a companion that she'd marry a gay man... I don't understand why she thinks this way....wanting a relationship with someone minus the sex??? I even told her that if I were married i'd be so in love with and want to be with my husband as much as possible... I'm trying to casually bring up sex in our conversations but when I start telling her the truth about things she screams at me and says "Shut up you don't know what your talking about...you don't know what it is to be married or whatever it is i'm right about. After she shocked me with..i'll marry a gay guy...I told her that she can easily find a good man that will love her the way she deserves to be...but that she has to deal with her intimacy issues because that good man won't stick around if she refuses to be intimate with him...She got quiet and I think I may have even taken her by surprise by knowing she has those kid of issues...something she probably thought she had kept hidden from me up until that moment. As far as how her parents handled sex talk with her....they didn't My mom was born and raised in Tijuana, Mexico to an illiterate mother and father who worked all day...they were dirt poor. She is one of 9 kids... She basically learned about sex from friends and her siblings...Yeah she's had it bad and having had so many negative experiences with Sex I can see why she doesn't want to have it anymore...but I know that once she see's that there is nothing wrong with it...she'd be so much happier!! I'll keep trying...but I doubt I could get her to sit in front of the computer and check out the articles on this website...

Well it might sound very weird but I would like to introduce my mom to this website....or the toys atleast.. I've never really been able to talk to her about Sex in general...she squirms and gets really uncomfortable...where as I could ask my dad almost anything and he was willing to answer me...he was the one that told me masturbation was normal and not wrong!! Anyways My mom hasn't had sex in nearly 3 years...She was a wild one when I was growing up, she was thin ...she wieghed 115 lbs when I was 8 years old and I am the youngest of 3!!! and was and still is beautiful. I remember her always letting me spend the night at my nieghbor's house for days at a time...I know now that she was getting laid all those nights lol...somewhere along the line she changed, Her Anxiety and panic disorders run her life, she's 194 lbs and doesn't care, she's 52 still very young and vibrant but acts like a grumpy 80 year old!!! She is separated from my stepdad and thinks she's too old to find another man..she actually says she just wants a companion (her way of saying a relationship without sex ) I am worried about her waisting her remaining years alone and miserable, I want her to feel alive again, to be the independant woman she was when I was growing up (without the alcohol binges though) I want to talk to her about this website, show her the toys...is that wrong?? OR EVEN disgusting of me?? I don't know how to bring it up with her though...especially with how uncomfortable it makes her I mean her gynecologist asked her if she had the same sex partner for the past six months with me in the room and she got all flustered and made me leave after begging me to go in with her...should I even try talking sex with her? Leave it alone? or is it wrong of me to talk to my mom about this?? Oh yeah and I remember my mom telling me once that she didn't like sex...yet she had three kids and 3 miscarriages?? She confuses me alot!!! how can someone not like sex?? Anyways I'm open to any and all Advice

Hey Tyger, I can't answer yes or no lol... my thing is that I am always scared of getting caught so when I do masterbate its like boring...and if...thats a BIG IF..I have an orgasm it isn't all that strong.. I've even done the shower head thing..and the road to the Orgasm is way better then the orgasm itself.... the point is I haven't had an orgasm that is so explosive I start screaming loud enough to get anybody's atention....Hell i've been worried about my mom catching me but I am starting to think she might not even care.. I would love to talk to her about it and get her to see this website so she can re-discover herself as well because she hasn't had sex of any kind in almost 3 years now...at this point I would be so fucking happy to hear her masturbating because she needs it...she's always grumpy lol!! If I knew she was ok with it and she knew I was ok with it god it would be great!! anyways I haven;t got caught yet...if and when I do I'll let you know how it goes!!! lol

Hey Tyger:) They were Energizer batteries lol!! the first set anyways and I put them in the toy the day I got it... I had tried it 3 times only before the batteries died...but I think running it for an hour each time is why the batteries died so fast....the ones from changer and mouse were not new though. It take me a while to start feeling anything, about 5 or 10 minutes, and like I said before I would go at it for an hour before my legs eventually start cramping up and falling asleep on me. Anyways i'm gonna get new batteries hopefully soon so I can give it another go

Hey Everyone... GOOD NEWS FIRST:) i'm in the process of getting driving lessons...YAY ME!!! BAD NEWS I went at it with my toy again last night and um...I GOT SO FREAKING CLOSE TO ORGASMING!! I swear my body was shaking and I was starting to scream not caring at all if my mother heard me!! BUT THEN.....my batteries died The vibrator literally just stopped!!! so I quickly grabbed my TV changer and put those batteries in...Once I was vibrating again I was well on my way back towards ORGASM HEAVEN BUT.......... those batteries died too...so I jacked the batteries from my mouse and AGAIN WAS WELL ON MY WAY BACK TO ORGASM HEAVEN BUT.......those batteries died too...I swear i'm complaining to the Energizer bunny himself about his damn batteries not going and going and going!!!!! Needless to say even though I tried for 20 minutes to get to ORGASM HEAVEN just on my own hip energy it didn't happen the cool circular motion the penis head makes and the vibration combined with it...WOW lol. Oh and I practically did a full on 1 HOUR Yoga class prior to playing with my toy...as well as watching A dvd of stand up comedy and laughing hysterically!! I was so relaxed by the time I got into my bed, and as soon as I got started I was feeling it like never before. I didn't care if my mom heard me or the toy, I didn't care if my bed creaked...I could see myself in my closet door mirrors and thought...YOU DESERVE THIS, YOU DESERVE TO HAVE AN ORGASM BEAUTIFUL!! I was so freakin relaxed it was almost euphoric...that is until three sets of batteries died on me lol!!! I have to go to the store in the morning to buy batteries because the last 4 I had are in my mouse and tv changer lol....I think I need to invest in rechargeable batteries!!!!

Hey Tyger and Howard Well to answer your questions I start off laying on my back and just holding the toy inside me with my hands starting at the lowest vibration and working my way up (can't figure out the stupid straps lol) The clit stimulator kind hurts when I press it against my clit like I feel my clit getting sort of aroused and pushed the clit stimulator against it and it hurt a liittle so I backed off. I have the main part inserted in my vagina..not moving it in and out or anything because I kept falling out of my tiny hand lol. The Anal stimulator however is what I feel the most pleasurable albeit minor sensations from, when I can get it right there. I will get up on my hands and knees and when I get tired of that I put a towel over a pillow and straddle the thing. But after an hour or so I am fully frustrated and wind up giving up. strangely enough after I take the toy out, I feel all tingly and excited and feel the need to masturbate by hand. I do it but the orgasm (if you want to call it that) is dull, the build up providing more pleasure than the actual orgasm I seriously lube the toy up, do all the breathing and teasing like Mikayla suggests in her articles but the relaxing part, after reading Howard's post is probably what is stopping me from enjoying this. And with the vibrator not being so quiet I think that amplifies my fear of getting caught. So I decided to buy a second more easier and quieter Vibrator~ Lucid Dream #54 g-spot vibe I think its called because I think Tyger is right about "The crystal Snow Bear" being to much stimulation for me a beginner. Relaxing for me is quite easy being a dancer with stage frieght issues and being able to over come that, but here at home masturbating (or trying atleast) and being afraid of getting caught...I really shouldn't be because my mom actually doesn't come into my room at night..I thought she might but she hasn't..but I hear her walking by at night on her way to the bathroom and will stop no matter how good it may be feeling. I know what really scares me though...its the not knowing how loud i'm going to be when I actually have my first really good and strong orgasm and if I'll be able to muffle my sounds. The one I had at my dads was great but I still don't feel like I've had a real orgasm. I also have this body image issue...i'm overwieght was 200lbs at my heaviest and am now down to 170lbs because I was just depressed about my weight. Anyways I get naked and don't feel beautiful or worthy of this self love. I Have what I feel is an ugly Vagina and the skin on my inner thighs is dark and scarred because of the skin rubbing together and rubbing itself raw when I wear skirts and bathing suits. I've always been chubby so all the scarring is from when I was kid as well. Anyways when I open my legs its looks ugly and then my Vagina to me looks ugly and I think..who will ever want to perform oral sex on me when it looks so ugly?? it looks nothing like what you seen in porn either!!! Then there are the stretch marks from being over weight. Then I saw the my sexy labia website and got even more disheartened by my body, because my vagina looks nothing like the ones in those photos. I do know that since finding this website I have had this new desire to want to get really aquainted with my body, learn to apreciate it scars and all.. and feel beautiful . learn where all my E-spots are and be able to bring myself to a real orgasm with just my fingers. I also want to be better prepared for when I lose my virginity and for when I get married so I know how to please my husband and him me. I want to be comfortable with having orgasms by myself and with any guy I may ever be with. Its hard though and frustrating when i can't bring myself to a decent orgasm, or feel sexy enough to be doing this kind of thing, you know rewarding myself with self admiration and love when I feel that I don't deserve it. Not having a job, a drivers license, friends, a boyfriend, and a life...that all makes me feel like I don't deserve to have this sort of release. I haven't masturbated since I started this thread, i'm taking a break to give the genitalia a rest because its a little sore now I don't know what to do to make me change the way I feel about my body [/color]