Members mystofpric Posted October 19, 2008 Members Report Share Posted October 19, 2008 SO i guess this should be in the rants section, but I'm ntt ranting or raving I'm lamenting, so please bear with me.As I have mentioned several times, I have been on and off with my college beau for 5+ years now. Adam has become one of my closest friends and the only person I think about late at night. He's normally not so great at keeping in touch, and I get that this is just how he is. THis weekend was Alumni Weekend at our college. He called me friday at 5am to tell me he was in town and he wanted to meet up for drinks and what not. I said yes just call me when you get done your Frat stuff and I'll meet you downtown and we'll go from there. He said okay. We hang up and I'm walking on cloud 9, I figured he wasn't going to be back this way an as I don't spend any time in NYC our pathes wouldn't really cross any more and friends was the best we could hope for.All day Friday I was giddy. If for nothing else because I was ging to get to see him again, even if sex wasn't in teh cards. Also calling, actually picking up teh phone and calling is so out of teh ordinary for him, and we always kept our thing hush hush so wanting to get drinks first was a real sign of growth. Friday night about 11, I go all primped and pretty and waited for him to call. No call. So I called him, his voicemail is full.Saturday comes and still holding out hope. This time though I don't primp or make with the pretty, i figure throw on clean clothes and that should be fine. Well glad I didn't because for teh second night in a row I fell asleep ith the phone next to me, a phone that would never ring.SO here it is Sunday morning and i know he's heading home soon and i missed him, rather he missed me but the loss is on my end for sure. So after 5 years I know tha I have to cut my losses but it's not fair. It's not fair that after all this time i haven't even earned enough of his respect for a phone call. It's kinda typical behavior for him, he must have, as he often does, find someone better or more convient and just "forgot" to call me.I'm tired of shedding tears for people who don't deserve them, but damned if he isn't in my herat. Even if it isnt an all consuming love after all this time and all that we've been thourgh there is a kind of love there and that hurts even more. To acknowledge that those feelings are wasted. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members mystofpric Posted October 19, 2008 Author Members Report Share Posted October 19, 2008 one good thing did come out of this: I wasn't enbarressed! I just hopped in the shower and guess what? I skipped shaving under one arm! I was in such a rush to get the legs and the flower de-fuzzed that apperently I skipped that! Opps, glad no one saw that! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members ohshelly Posted October 20, 2008 Members Report Share Posted October 20, 2008 Suzy, even when you are sad, you find something to laugh about.Can I adopt you?? Our extra room is soft pink, purple and cream, but you can change whatever you want in there, ok?P.S. Your single 22 year old 'stepbrother' is a hottie, too! Just so you know what we have to offer up here in the big woods................................... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members mystofpric Posted October 20, 2008 Author Members Report Share Posted October 20, 2008 Suzy, even when you are sad, you find something to laugh about.Can I adopt you?? Our extra room is soft pink, purple and cream, but you can change whatever you want in there, ok?P.S. Your single 22 year old 'stepbrother' is a hottie, too! Just so you know what we have to offer up here in the big woods...................................Cani just tell you i fell in love with that room color? mmmm a live-in hottie that's my age? Yeah I'm sold, where am I moving to?Yeah I actually laughed out loud in the shower. I had been crying when I wrote that post and the e-mail to him and then i saw that, lol. OPPS. I do that all the time shave one leg or something like that! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Review Team sass Posted October 20, 2008 Review Team Report Share Posted October 20, 2008 I am so sorry you had a bad weekend Suz. I totally understand what you are saying ... remember me? Been there, done that! It is not easy, even the parts that seem like they should be easy aren't. It sucks. It is not fair. But, we learn from it and every low point makes the high points that much better.Hugs and kisses! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members mystofpric Posted October 20, 2008 Author Members Report Share Posted October 20, 2008 I am so sorry you had a bad weekend Suz. I totally understand what you are saying ... remember me? Been there, done that! It is not easy, even the parts that seem like they should be easy aren't. It sucks. It is not fair. But, we learn from it and every low point makes the high points that much better.Hugs and kisses!Oh I could never forget you! But this was definitely his last chance and he blew it, he knew this was his last chance and he didn't even try. So, this means, and listen up men, I'm taking applications! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members sun_flower969 Posted October 20, 2008 Members Report Share Posted October 20, 2008 one good thing did come out of this: I wasn't enbarressed! I just hopped in the shower and guess what? I skipped shaving under one arm! I was in such a rush to get the legs and the flower de-fuzzed that apperently I skipped that! Opps, glad no one saw that!OH MY GOD!!!! I thought I was the only one who did that! LMFAO Did you go back and fix it? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members mystofpric Posted October 20, 2008 Author Members Report Share Posted October 20, 2008 OH MY GOD!!!! I thought I was the only one who did that! LMFAO Did you go back and fix it? As soon as I hopped in the shower, i totally noticed the next day, lol! I do that all the time I only do one leg or one arm, lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members vanilla_bean Posted October 21, 2008 Members Report Share Posted October 21, 2008 I just hope that next time he calls you'll be far too busy with some fabulous plans to be able to make time for him. It will be such a shame. He may never get over it! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members mystofpric Posted October 21, 2008 Author Members Report Share Posted October 21, 2008 I just hope that next time he calls you'll be far too busy with some fabulous plans to be able to make time for him. It will be such a shame. He may never get over it!The odds of him ever calling is slim to none at best. Jerk. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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