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  2. Fear...? (Guys Opinions Appreciated, But All Comments Welcome.)

    in Oral Sex Discussion

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    So you don't actually -have- to read the following story, I'll just sum up the point of this: Were any of you guys freaked out when you first tried cunnilingus? Mind explaining why? Did you get over it? How? Any advice? ((You can skip the rest if you want, I just need to vent.)

    Me and my man finally got a brief vacation together, after being separated by busy schedules and 1000+ miles for months. It went very well, accept...the second to last day. I ended up in tears. And it wasn't because I was about to miss him terribly, though I -was-. :(

    See, he agreed to try oral sex on me. I've never experienced that. (He actually made a previous attempt which I mentioned in another thread, suffice it to say it ended before it started) Everyone I've ever talked to claims it's a lovely experience. Considering my orgasm issue (Also mentioned in a different thread) I was kind of (very) hopeful. :)

    I never pressured him about this sort of thing, I just asked (very sheepishly) if he would be willing to try, he responded with enthusiasm. I don't have the best self-esteem in the world, so I was a little stunned and a bit skeptical that he was -that- comfortable with it. But he reassured me time and time again that he was cool with it. Even intrigued enough to research techniques. I was kinda touched, not to mention excited. :wub:

    Anyway, the moment came and he started touching me with his hands first and... he freaked out. Panicked. Said that he just couldn't do it. That, uh, every time he tried getting close to -there- with his -face- made his instincts tell him to retreat.

    I don't remember thinking before I blurted out that it was fine, he didn't have to do it, that it wasn't a big deal, but...I lied. I felt humiliated. My hope crashed and burned. I felt foolish because I more or less expected it not to work out, but I asked anyway, and I was really hoping that I'd be wrong. I felt a little rejected and insulted by the fact that he freaked out over my body. (Though it's obvious he's very, very fond of it otherwise.) I was even jealous because of his relative ease climaxing.

    And I hated myself for it, but I couldn't stop thinking "with how many times I've done this for you, you really can't just -try-? Even for a minute? -REALLY-?" ... I felt that he owed me. And that made me feel sick. I'm NOT that kind of person! I never wanted to think of something I did out of love as something that needed to be repaid, ever! I did it because I wanted him to feel good and because I'm in love with him, period.

    All of this built up and I guess I finally exploded during the rest of our little session because I started to cry and told him most of what I was thinking, and that I was angry. I'm certain it hurt, hell, seeing me cry -alone- would've hurt, I know he can't stand seeing me cry, but I couldn't stop myself. I felt awful and apologized, and he held me, soothed me, said he was sorry, and we moved on, I guess... but it still hurts.

    I asked him if there's any chance he'd be willing to work on it in the future, maybe try it again... he just said "I dunno." And I'm not sure what to do or think. Am I just -that- unappealing down there? I showered, shaved, and I had a favorite flavor of lube for him (though he insisted he wouldn't need it) Or, maybe it isn't me? Is it that -all- women are a little intimidating that way? We -are- more complex, I guess.

    ...Or, hell, is it just one of -his- quirks, do I just need to back off, let it go? Maybe one of you can shed a little light on this. :huh:I enjoyed the first time and to this day love it

  7. Penis Enlargement

    in Introduce Yourself!

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    You can talk to your Urologist about this, most are very knowledgable about the surgery. While taking multiple high blood pressure medications I was have problems with erections and while discussing how to over come the issue we somehow started talking about penis enlargement. Unless you are pretty darn small I don't believe it is worth it, you really can't gain a tremendous amount of size, some girth and length, but more than likely you will not be hung.

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