Hi Jen, I have recentally had an out of the blue, wild, erotic re-awakening. I never thought this could happen to me, but it has and its awsome, I feel alive again. It's all because of a certain actor, who I now adore. I am online into his fan-clubs, etc. Talking about him, to others, who share the same feelings( there are sooo many of us!) Has helped and it's fun. I masterbate, during his movies, hell, I'm turned on all the time just thinking about him. I still am in reality, but he is just overwhelming. My hubby has been away on business, coincidentally, during all this. I love my husband, we've been married a LONG time. I want to bring this new passion into our life, but don't want it to seem like it's my fantasy man that I really want to be with. I don't think my real man would get it. He's not like that. Does this make sense? Thanks...Carol