I'm coming up on being widowed for 2 years, and have broken up with a long distance lover. My sex drive has always been high, but during the last couple of years of my marriage, we only had sex once.
Almost a year after my husband died, I joined a dating site. I can't date anyone in my hometown, because my husband knew everyone. I have also never been interested in any man I've met here.
I have social anxiety, and can't bring myself to go anywhere to find a lover, so the dating site would have to do. But I wasn't interested in anyone from my state, and it was getting frustrating. Masturbation doesn't satisfy me, it only frustrates me further. I can cum many times, but have never been satisfied unless a man cums inside me.
Enter Mr Wonderful... From way out of state, but his son lives 5 hours away, and he used to live there. We talked on the phone, and made plans to meet when he came for a visit.
When he came out, we met, but there were no hotel rooms available on that day, so we got to know each other, and I went home.
That was a year ago, and it's NEVER happened. He turned out to be someone I didn't want, and I moved on... 3 times... Because this guy had something I really wanted. But it wasn't to be.
I kicked him to the curb for the last time, but we hadn't had sex (online) since June 24th. I am so horny I can't even sit correctly. My pussy just throbs constantly, and my toys satisfy me at first, but here I am again, and I don't know what to do.
So I thought I would write it out on here, because I have no one to talk to about it.
Whimper
