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21 hours ago, saltybear said:

Sweet you got a plan

It does seem that way.

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10 minutes ago, Suzaniam said:

I didn't do a lot of things for that exact reason. But. 

I did all the right things. When my late husband died 2 years ago, however, my inlaws took the chance every time I was out of the hospital room to criticize and gossip about me. Not one single friend I thought I had made in 33 years ever came to see me.

Do what makes YOU happy. Unless you want to be a politician, nothing will come back to haunt you, and by the time you're my age, you won't care! 😁😁😁

Thanks and I'm sorry for your loss.  I'm still in school and have been single for around a year. Allot of people (not so much here) have told me to get into a relationship with someone that's into this or that to teach me. Problem is I dont want to be in a relationship until I'm at least out of college. So sex right now is just for sex and I just feel guilty I guess because I was told it was wrong. Throw in the weird stuff I fantasize about I guess it would be way past wrong. But I still fantasize about it.

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1 minute ago, Suzaniam said:

I have found this site to be full of great people. I think you came to the right place, as did I! Have a great time while you're young, make lots of memories you can look back on when you get to be 57. 💙

Thanks. I'm more afraid of having regrets. Doing something then being judged for it or something later.

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4 minutes ago, Suzaniam said:

I know what it's like to feel alone and confused... I'm old, but surprisingly, still haven't figured out much. 💙 Life's a trip...

Well I'm only 22 and I just really dont have anyone to ask that's why I took a chance and posted here. 

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7 minutes ago, Suzaniam said:

Yes. One person knows. He was supposed to fulfill my darkest one. But I broke it off, and I probably won't tell anyone else.

 

7 minutes ago, Suzaniam said:

Yes. One person knows. He was supposed to fulfill my darkest one. But I broke it off, and I probably won't tell anyone else.

Well thank you for saying something. 

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15 minutes ago, Suzaniam said:

I know the feeling, I also have some fantasies that are disturbing sometimes...

So do you just keep them to your self. 

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For the few replies I have received thanks. 

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Hello I'm a 22 year old female student that's very confused over the way iv been thinking and acting. I really have no one to ask or talk about this this just seems like a logical place to ask questions of this sort. Maby get some opinions or advice or even guidance.
  Ok I guess I have to put it out there. I have noticed my sexual fantasies have been changing to very much darker places. Also some of the things I do or the way I act. It's been slow but gradual. One of those things you dont really realize until something happens that makes you realize it.
   Now I noticed I'm watching very hardcore porn and hentai subjects that I know I probably shouldn't and in short I loose myself in the fantasies of it. 
  Here is the deal though. Normally I'm very reserved for the most part. I'm not a slut lol but I'm not a nun either. But a normal sexual encounter just doesn't work for me anymore. 
Well that's enough for now. If anyone wants to give me their insight or guidance I would love to hear from you. I'm just woundering if the pressure from work and school is making me crack up and what I should do about it. 
Thanks