RlR1256

Hi, So, first my situation. I'm a 32 year old virgin. I suffered from real bad depression which hindered most of my development in life, but it's cool now, so no worries. I have a feeling this isn't that unusual, but I used masturbation as a way to hide from my feelings and life, so I did it a lot. I suppose I numbed myself, which is why I needed certain fetish stuff to get off. I believe alot of it was mental. I'm in a better place now, and I'm starting to think about being with actual girls, and I'm masturbating less frequently, but when I do I ejaculate quicker than ever. I'm talking seconds. This has always been a thing with me, except when I was doing it so much there was like a system to stretch the session out. So, my question is; Is there hope for me? I get freaked out thinking about, how I've been doing it this way for so many years and that maybe the issue has rooted itself. And certainly even if that isn't the case it will take some undoing, how do I sort that out. I'm sure most girls will be turned off by this. So any advice?