YaAvergaeBloke

It is what it is at the end of the day, wish it had never happened in the first place. Thank you for your comment

Yes sorry, I wrote this up pretty fast, we're both 26 this year, no kids or anything to really tie each other down. I have sought out therapy, unsure if it's working yet aha. Thank you for your reply

So to break this all down as quick as I can, I have been with my fiance for 3 years, he told me just a couple of months ago that at the start of last year he had installed the Grindr app, reached out to someone and had a "hook up" with said person, my fiance tells me that it finished as it started as he had realized what he was doing and that it was wrong. He went through with therapy, I had thought it was for an unrelated incident but he told me it was because of what he had done. Obviously I was upset when he told me, I moved out that same day and at the moment I am staying with a parent. At the time I didn't really know why, but I thought that we could try and fix this, we've been trying for a while now.. Some days are good for me, where I don't feel really bothered, then I have other days which are filled with anxiety, depression and PTSD (I say PTSD because I have vivid flashbacks and scenarios on how it went down). This is more of a rant and a question, I need to get this off my chest so I hope it's allowed. Am I dreaming to think I can fix this, or do I need to get over my fear of being alone? (This is my first relationship, ever)