princesa113

I am not a beginner in oral sex, but I am new to giving oral sex to a guy who is bigger than most (all around). Hes not just long and not just wide, hes both so Im having a hard time trying to complete it. I pretty much know that I have to stay at the tip and use my hand (so Ive heard) but isnt there any other way? I mean Im used to getting it all in my mouth usually and now that I cant I feel, for lack of a better word, inadequate. And I hate feeling that way, so if anyone has any advice, I would greatly appreciate it. Hes feeling good but I know he can feel better.

I was dating a guy for about a year and a couple months. Within that time we have broken up about 3-5 times (I cant even tell you the exact #, that should tell you something); every single time we broke up he was the cause, I am the one that broke up with him but he is the reason why. He would lie to me about things he was doing online, like talking (more than just friendly chit chat) to women, sending nude pictures of himself, etc. Well I found all of this out on my own, he did not fess up to it. Even when I would confront him about it, he would still deny it. I will admit I was not very smart when I got back together with him the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th time. But anyway, things were going fine after all of that. Then of course the lying happened again, this time I actually just let it go and tried to work at it without breaking up, well that didnt work very well. I ended up breaking up with him and staying single for about a month or so (longer than any other time we had broken up). Well come to find out I actually like this whole single life, and I dont want to be in a relationship, which is what I told him (because he was trying to get back together with me). I kept telling myself Im gonna stay single this time, well of course I got back together with him. He confessed his undying love, and said he would never hurt me again. During the little week that we were together, I kept thinking about how much I didnt want to be in the relationship. I also liked another guy and I didnt think it was fair to be with someone that "loves you so much" and you dont feel the same way about them. So I ended it with him tonight. I told him that I didnt want to hurt him and Im sorry we got back together just to end it again, but I couldnt go on in the relationship any longer knowing that his feelings were alot stronger than mine, and that I also liked someone else (no I do not want to be in a relationship with this other guy, I just felt it was wrong to like someone while youre in a relationship with someone else). After all of this blah blah, my question is do you stay with someone because they love you and take care of you even though you know you dont really want to be in the relationship. Mind you, he does treat me well (for the most part). But I dont think I can be in a committed relationship right now. Any thoughts or suggestions would be more than appreciated.