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I WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE FOR ALL OF YOUR HELP. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT. I HAVE SENT A PRIVATE MESSAGE TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE HELPED ME MOST. THANKS AGAIN EVERYONE.

HI I am 18 years of age. I have a fiance who is 22. We have done oral and we both love it and we feel it is time for us to step it up and have sexually intercourse. We have tried over 5 times and I never go through with it because it hurts. It even use to hurt when I would put my own finger in there but eventually I got it in there but it is still hard to even do that sometimes. He has been so patient with me. He gets frustrated sometimes and I get upset because no matter how hard I try I never go through with it. I tried to guide him inside of me so that I can be in control of how it will go in me but when ever I do that he says my fingernails hurt him and even when I try to be careful with my fingernails he says it still hurts him. Then everything starts getting complicated and frustrating. I have asked plenty of people for advice but it never helps. I have seen how people have helped others on here and thought this would help me as well. One of my ideas is to buy a dildo from online (which was what guided me to this webite) and maybe that will help me because I think I will be able to guide it into me the way it will feel comfortable to me and then once I get it in then I think that will help me be able to have sex with my man. What do you think? Is it a good idea? If so, what type of dildo should I get? What size as far as the width and lenth goes???? I don't want anything to big. I want something that will be just right for a virgin like me. Is using a dildo even a good idea for my 1st time? If not what are your suggestions? Do you have any ideas for me not to focus so much on the pain during my 1st time?? I do know that it is going to hurt but the pain is too much for me but I feel if I was in more control then it will be better but as I said earlier, when I try to be in control it is very frustrating for us both. Please help me!!!! I am in desperate need of help!!! Feel free to ask any questions that will help you to help me better PLEEEEEEASE!!!!! P.S, I HAVE ALSO THOUGHT ABOUT TAKING A FEW DRINKS BEFORE DOING IT ALTHOUGH I HAVE NEVER DRUNK IN MY LIFE. I THOUGHT NOT TO GET TOO DRUNK BUT JUST A COUPLE OF DRINKS MIGHT EASE THE SITUATION. WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK ABOUT THIS IDEA?? Thanks so much.