Curiouswillinginexperienced

Thanks so much for you advices everyone... Honestly, i feel better about this... minus the whole "virgin" part... I didn't think that was going to be a big portion of the topic... I hope to God, its not urine but me having a HELL OF a good orgasam.. Ya'll are wonderful..

I'm still VERY new to masturbating and I've been reading all the articles on TOO TIMID and on the internet. I bought a Ultimate Pearl Beaded Rabbit Vibrator and loved it, although i wish it was a bit longer. I'm still a virgin and probably will remain one because I've never had an orgasam when in sexual play. I'm really big into foreplay: oral, kissing, and touching but i've never been able to get an orgasam with my partner. I think its more out of fear of not knowing what an orgasam would feel like and i felt like i almost urinated on my partner. I've been trying to figure out exactly WHAT AN ORGASAM FEELS LIKE... When i was using my vibrator, i think i've been getting G-spot orgasams. I know in the tootimid article some women can ejacuate anywhere from an oz to a quart but SERIOUSLY, when i "ejaculate" its the same amount of urine i excrete, sensation, sometimes its yellow and sometimes it has the "urine" smell. I do feel a sort of "orgasam" but I'm wondering, is it because im really peeing? I try to hold my urine in but i cant seem to control the "ejaculation"/urine (which ever it is). I usually feel relaxed and tired after i do "pee". I've tried peeing before masturbating, not drinking so much water before and i still get the same results? So i go see a urologist? I've talked to my gyno but i dont think she really understands what I'm saying and says its normal... I really want to have sex, i'm just scared of honest to go "peeing" on someone. what's wrong with me? sad.gif unsure.gif

I'm still VERY new to masturbating and I've been reading all the articles on TOO TIMID and on the internet. I bought a Ultimate Pearl Beaded Rabbit Vibrator and loved it, although i wish it was a bit longer. I'm still a virgin and probably will remain one because I've never had an orgasam when in sexual play. I'm really big into foreplay: oral, kissing, and touching but i've never been able to get an orgasam with my partner. I think its more out of fear of not knowing what an orgasam would feel like and i felt like i almost urinated on my partner. I've been trying to figure out exactly WHAT AN ORGASAM FEELS LIKE... When i was using my vibrator, i think i've been getting G-spot orgasams. I know in the tootimid article some women can ejacuate anywhere from an oz to a quart but SERIOUSLY, when i "ejaculate" its the same amount of urine i excrete, sensation, sometimes its yellow and sometimes it has the "urine" smell. I do feel a sort of "orgasam" but I'm wondering, is it because im really peeing? I try to hold my urine in but i cant seem to control the "ejaculation"/urine (which ever it is). I usually feel relaxed and tired after i do "pee". I've tried peeing before masturbating, not drinking so much water before and i still get the same results? So i go see a urologist? I've talked to my gyno but i dont think she really understands what I'm saying and says its normal... I really want to have sex, i'm just scared of honest to go "peeing" on someone. what's wrong with me?