Sally

Help! I need advice on how to deal with trust( or lack of) and insecurities. I have been in a relationship with a man for almost a year and a half. We live an hour away and see each other only on weekends as long as work allows it. It has been an on again off again thing because of trust and insecurities. I would never cheat on him(I love him) and he says the same. We met on a dating site and most of the time we have been seeing each other, he continues to check out other women in his home town. I have told him how I feel about this but he still does it. He says he doesn't but last weekend when I was at his house, I checked his computer and sure enough I saw that he was. When it first started happening(I've looked before) I tried to ignore it thinking that it was just typical of a man to do this, but I've been wondering lately if maybe he's just keeping me around until something better comes up. Sex for him has been great but all I get is wham bam thank you maam! I love giving him blow jobs; but I've only gotten oral twice and it ends almost as soon as it starts. Tried talking to him about what I like/want/need but it's usually short lived. I've only had 2 great orgasms with him that I can recall. He doesn't kiss me passionetly ever, unless I ask him to. I've masterbated in front of him and sometimes he reacts to that but not enough. I try to explain to him how I need this closeness from him: especially since we see each other only on weekends, but I don't know how to make him understand that even snuggling is important to me. Right now he is upset with me for snooping on his computer, but I need to know if I am wasting my time with a man that has no respect for me or my needs. This is a condensed version, because we really do have lots of fun together. We go out to the club or cook great meals together,etc. Do I insist that he respond to my needs or just let him go?