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Thanks Dirty Blonde, He called about an hour later. We had a great talk, laughed, planned some adventures for the weekend. And the world was a happy place again. Trust is hard to earn when I won't let him. I have high hopes for this one though! He is my dream man!

I divorced a cheating husband in 2004. Have dated several people, now in love with man that I have been dating for over a year. I have no reason not to trust him, other than he is a bit of a flirt and goes out with the boys once in a blue moon. But like tonight, his corporate boss is in town and they are taking all the sales reps out. My mind plays tricks on me. Is his boss really in town? Is he going to take someone home with him from the bar they end up in? Will he call me when he gets home or will he come home? Next week he has to go out of town for 3 days. He will be in the city of his first x wife. I already know I will be insane. Here's what's sad. I am a family counselor. I know that I don't need a man, am not dependant on anyone for my happiness and even if he stayed home every night and never looked at another woman he could still cheat on me. I cannot control those things. But I don't know how to get a hold of my mind from making stuff up! I talk to a guy friend who says I am the my greatest enemy. Any hints, clues as to how to deal with myself. The relationship is nothing but wonderful so please don't analyze that. It's me, just my mind. Has anyone else survived this craziness and come out on the other side?