Why not do it yourself? By this I mean why not try what used to be one of my wife's favorite surprises for me when we first got married. I would get a phone call either when I was working some where outside or while I was on my way home. She would ask me how long I was going to be or could I please come up to the house becasue she needed me to help her with something she couldn't do herself. IShe would be either dressed in some super sexy lingerie or totally naked and tied to the bed. How? if she was all alone whihc she was. She got a little creative and would use stuff like old panyhose etc. and tie first her ankles and then her one wrist using slip knots. Then when she knew I was a few minutes away she would slip her remaining free wrist through the loop and pull it tight with her teeth. Pretty inventive if I do say so myself. Was she totally bound to the point where she couldn't move at all, no she still had some movement but it gave the appearance of helplessness neing totaly submisive. I some times would re-tie the restrains tighter so as she was definetly bound nice and tight. I needless to say took full advantage of the situation. My wife used to be EXTREMELY vanilla when it came to sex but grew in leaps and bounds in her sexual curiosity and adventerous spirit. She typicly won't do a lot of things bordering on the extreme kinky side but when she is tied up or boound she becomes totally the ideal submissive and surcumes to my every wish. I have used multiple sex toys on her at the same time, spanked her violated her in every way imaginable, photograped and video taped many hours of submission. So do you think your b/f mihgt just have a slight idea as to what to do to you when he sees you tied to the bed waiting for him? As far as you only being 18 and scaring him by you being in to this well he's a big boy now and needs to grow up. He should count himself lucky that he has someone with your sexual drive and desire for the wild side. If he doesn't know he will look back at the relationship some day and say WTF I had this kinky chick awho was a sexual dynamo and I was a dumbass and did noting with it. Good Luck...