Ronnyl

Im hoping someone can give me some good advice here..... My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years now the last one we have lived together. I discovered last feb over 5oo porn movies "hidden" on his computer. I also found flirty e mails to "my space women" and other websites along with an e mail to a past girlfriend that said he was remembering how intense sex was with her and it was unexciting with me. As you can imagine I was very hurt. He watches porn every day on his computer(tries to cover it up) but it never transfers to fun for us as a couple. often there is 2- 3 months inbetween our sex dates and even then he never has an orgasm. Usually he loses his erection very quickly. when we are having sex, he mostly lays on the bottom and puts me on top with almost no foreplay. When we first got together, he was also seeing someone else and I had to hear how "great" sex was with her and how he was hung up on it. I was hoping it would be that way for us but its just not happening. Im beginning to think that looking at all of that hard core porn has backfired and he cannot get aroused any other way. ive tried sexy underwear, i give him oral, I tease him with very little response. i think its very selfish to masturbate to porn by yourself leaving your SO ignored for weeks at a time. Last time i brought it up he said it was my fault because I seemed to be "waiting" for it and it made him uncomfortable. As a last effort I have oredered a porn DVD ,an anal toy , and the Liberator ramp . Maybe he is too scared to ask me to do that. i dont know. if that doesnt work, Im afraid we may not make it. I love him a lot and otherwise we have a great relationship. Im wildly attracted to him but I dont feel he is all that wild about me physically. I thnik I have a great body. Im 5'8 130 lbs and very fit . To make it worse, he wont talk about it. Gets very nervous and sometimes angry talking about sex at all. its very very frustrating. How can a guy who is addicted to hard core porn not want to carry that into the bedroom with a willing partner? Please help!!!!! greeneyedblonde