How did your tear occur? Was the baby in an unusual position during the birth? Were you lying on your back, or in a full squat? Did the doc give you an episiotomy before you tore? Were you encouraged to expulsively(breath holding) push the baby out? I have given birth to 3 babies, and if you want to avoid another bad tear IF you plan to have more babies, I can help you avoid tears and c-section with some information. I gave birth to my 3rd baby who came out face first (widest part of the head) with no tears!