HTK

We broke up, and i feel good. I feel like i've done so much for that girl and she wasn't there half way. I'm pretty sure down the line she'll relize what she lost, but it don't matter. I don't take anybody back after a break up, i refuse to. Thanks for all the help, now i'm trying to figure out if i'm going to get into a relationship or just have fuck buddies like i used to. I used to not care and this relationship i cared and thats what fucked me up. Thats okay tho.

that's my problem, I'm not sure if she's really trying... I gave her an option few days ago, sadly i broke down and cried in the car because I don't know wtf is going on anymore. I told her, honestly tell me if you like me or not. I wont be mad about it, It'll be easier for me to move on if that's the case. She said that she loves me and hates seeing me be miserable, she told me that she does not want to keep seeing me like this, she rather it be over between us then see me be miserable, but when i ask her do you really want to end this she says no i don't. I don't know if it's her past. She was cheated on 3 times and her sex life with past boyfriends was more abuse, she said she was forced to have sex while on her period. I mean we hang out a lot and love each others company but I can't help feeling that she's not meeting me halfway on things. I mean at times with some sanity left in me, i tell myself that I'm to good for this girl, i tell myself at times that she doesn't deserve me, that's how hard i have tried in this relationship. I have given her plenty of times to break it off and she hasn't, i guess thats what's confusing me. Two weeks ago i did snap, i threw my phone off the wall and broke it and didn't accept any of her phone calls to my house phone or any myspace messages. She kept on trying real hard, saying she couldn't sleep and didn't understand what was going on, she came over crying about the whole situation. The thing is that's confusing me at times, for me i love her and i let her know it everyday with the things i do. Movies, Chick Flicks, Messages, Hugs, Kisses on forehead, lips, cheeks w/e I pick her off work take her out to lunch, take her out to dinners, make her feel important because she is important to me, we even have movie nights with her parents every week now. My problem is, i never get anything back. I don't know if she has a problem showing how she feels about me, or if she really cares but doesn't express it. I don't know what the case is, but its hurting me. Sometimes she'll just come over and watch TV while i just want to play around with her. Maybe kiss, joke around, wrestle w/e I love that kinda a stuff and most of the time she's not in the mood for it. She has done these things before, but i really had to work at it to make it happen. I'm open minded and respect woman because of my past with my parents, and i do lover her very much. But if a relationship starts to take a toll on me, i will make the smart decision and break it off, for my own good. Regardless of how much i love her. I really don't want to get to this point. You guys have been great so far, but i need more insights on this.

Thanks a lot for the tips, I'm just trying to understand all of this. I've been in couple of relationships where i got hurt and i didn't go with anybody for 3 years. This is my first relationship after the 3 yr break and I'm trying hard not to screw it up, i admit i was an asshole before but not anymore. I've changed about a lot of things in a relationship. About us more tho so you guys can further understand my situation. She has had Yeast infection, and a bacteria infection. After the yeast infection she got the bacteria infection. She got off her period and we had sex and she started bleeding after few min. passed. Which was really strange. She said she was in pain, i kinda told her why didn't you tell me so i can stop cause I'm trying to be real understanding. After that night, i made her go to the doctor the next morning. I took a day off of work and paid her co-pay. I told her, you need to get your health back on track. So thats when she got the pills for the bacteria infection. Through all of her hard times, i always stuck by her. I took her out to dinner, party's, we watch a lot of movies together, i rub her feet, neck, and back. She love's it. Every time i try to make out with her or just play around with her she pushes me away. Which i just don't understand. I'm a really patient guy but sometimes it gets to me. Because she's not giving me any answers on whats going on and when that happens its leading me to think she's cheating on me which she isn't. Today we had the talk about it and she was snapping at me, i was just seeking answers. She did tell me when we had sex last time it hurt, thats when she was bleeding. She went on to tell me that she's nervous that it might hurt again and thats why we haven't had sex. I told her you'll never know until you try, and i want to try because if you're hurting you know you can tell me to stop and I'll back off and understand. I try to tell her not to be embaressed <(Spell Check} about these type a things because i want to understand them and if it hurts we need to go to the doctor and find out whats really going on with her. I'm really into things like kissing, playing around with her or just holding her and not wanting to let go. But she keeps pulling away. I want to make out and be romantic but she just seems like she's never in the mood. Now because of our talk today, she told me. Every time you bring this up the more i don't want to have sex with you. I'm sorry but thats crazy considering I'm just trying to understand what's going on. Its really not about sex at this point but knowing whats up. I told her, if you're nervous and scared i wount say anything for months and i'll wait for you. Honestly i don't want to be waiting any longer cause its already been long but thats the situation i'm stuck in right now and I wont mention anything to her anymore and just wait. I dont know what to do anymore, i'm always paying 100% attention to her, listening to her, watching chick flicks all kinds of stuff and i feel like i get nothing in return at all. I feel misrable.

I've been going out with my g/f for almost 3 months now. Sadly thats the longest I've ever went out with anybody. At first we were totally into each other, couldn't get enough of each other. Sex was good, she says she has never had an orgasm even with me. Its just something that doesn't happen to her. Just by me teasing and rubbing her Va J. J. then she'll have one. But besides the point, after her period and yeast infection and some other bacteria i haven't had sex in a month now. She's been clean since last week and i still haven't gotten any. I'm a really patient guy and i do try to understand because females are real complicated creatures. lol no pun intended at all. But she's been off of her pills since last week and nothing yet. Like i really don't want to be the guy to ask or plead a woman to have sex with me, its just not my style. I won't force her into it if she doesn't want to. So i tried to have sex with her tonight and she said no. I was like why not and she said cause its late and she has to go home... Then she asked me if i have been expecting to have sex tonight and i said yes, I've been expecting it since last week. Then she just said that she does not feel like having this conversation and left. I love this girl but i don't know what to do anymore, I'm honestly sexually frustrated. Now it's making me think she's doing something with somebody else, but know thats false because she's not that type. Honestly I'm clueless and i have no idea what to do anymore. I'm lost and confused and its really starting to bug me. I don't want to break up with her over this but at the same time this is ridiculous. When i ask her if its me she says "NO". Somebody please help, because this is eating me up from the inside. It's making me think crazy things like she's cheating on me or something. Thanks, HTK