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Hi everyone, I have been dating my guy for almost three years. He once asked me (after dating a few months) if he could "do me in my ass" during sex. I laughed and said, "no, I think it would hurt!" he said, "I think you're right" and didn't mention it again. I had been married before, and when my husband and I tried, it was excruciating, right away! So we never tried again (I was only 19 at the time) - also I went to the Dr. once and he had to put his finger in my anus and it hurt soo bad! So, I just thought it wasn't for me. However, I do enjoy having my guy "rim" me and I love doing it to him. (he enjoys it as well) A few years ago, I even had a toy with a small thing that went into my anus at the same time as the dildo. I loved that toy, but after a couple months threw it out, worried my kids might find it!! I've been thinking about it more and more lately, I'm 38 now and enjoy sex more than ever in my life! My guy is wonderful at going down on me and with that and penetration, I always orgasm several times during sex. He is very large, so large that at first I even had trouble fitting him into my mouth for bj's. I'm used to the size now, but that is another reason I feel as though it may never work.. The last time we had sex, I was very aroused and very slippery all over. In doggie style, he did try to penetrate my anus a couple times and he had done this once before (just a couple weeks before) when I was very aroused and we were lying side by side. It seemed an impossible barrier. I know he enjoys porn on his own, and I think it makes it look so easy in those films, so he may just be trying what he sees in the movies. I do so want to try it, I would love to please him in this way and I'm pretty sure he's had lovers that it came easy to. (not anal "virgins" like me!) I also think I would enjoy it as the thought is very arousing to me. So, my question is, do you think it's a bad idea to try, since he has such a fat girth and long penis? (wonderful in lovemaking, but scary to think of in anal!!) Not to sound silly, but I'm also scared of getting poop on him - yikes!!!! It seems such a small, tight and tiny opening - at the same time that would feel wonderful to him.. Thank you for taking the time to read! Any advice would be appreciated! ~luvmyguy