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Sorry it took so long to check back in. I have relatives in town staying at my house... You probably won't believe this, but my husband was actually my "first" ANYTHING. I was 25. But, it wasn't at all reserved once I decided to go for it and actually have sex. In fact, it was quite the opposite. I saw it as making up for lots and lots of lost time, and I ran the poor guy ragged I just wanted to try everything and was up for pretty much anything. I can't pinpoint what it is. I love sex. Masturbation feels great. Oral sex (on me) just doesn't really feel good. It's more awkward feeling than anything. I'm definitely not in love with my body and am a little self-conscious, but not so much that I think it would make me hate this so much. I'm totally fine with doing it to him (I love it, in fact). But, I just cringe when he wants to do it to me. Anyway, I'm going to finish reading through responses, and will check back in. Thanks for all the advice!

So, this is embarrassing, but I didn't know where else to ask and it's becoming an issue. While I thoroughly enjoy performing oral sex, I hate having it done to me. It's very frustrating to my husband, because he insists he likes doing it, but I just stop him because I figure it's kind of pointless if I'm not into it and it really kills the mood for me. What's my deal? Any suggestions?