I am 34 years old, petite, attractive & single. I say this because most people I know would not believe that I am quite shy when it comes to sex. Mentally I love it. I have fantasies all the time. My ex-friend of 3 months broke up with me and it really has thrown me for a loop. When we first started talking, he told me that he was into sex with multiple partners. When we broke up we had the conversation again and he asked me if I would be into that. I told him that I was not sure as I have never done it before but would be open to it if I was with someone I trusted. A few weeks after that I found out that he was shopping around while we were still together. Though this relationship was short, he was the type of guy that told me he wanted to marry me & have babies & all that comes with it. Well, of course I was turned upside down when I found out more about him. But it got me to thinking, I am just not sure how to handle sex without an emotional commitment. Also, I do not know how to pleasure myself. This frustrates me because I do enjoy sex. How can I find the balance and learn more about what makes me happy? This may sound like a simple thing to most people, but I really feel lost and it makes me sad. I do not always want to rely on a man, but I don't want to be completely independent. I just feel ilequipted and also feel like my relationship may have ended because I did not know how to take my sexual relationship to the next level. Any serious advice you may have would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.