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I was in this type of relationship for close to 10 years, and my decision to stay was because I honestly thought that was what I deserved. Luckily he wasn't an abusive person - but being ignored and dismissed felt almost as bad. I stayed for a long time because I'm a "caretaker" I felt that he couldn't do it on his own. I ended up resenting the fact that I became just that - his care taker, and nothing else. I don't blame that all on him, as I have come to realize all the thinks I did to put me in that situation. We were together for almost 9 years, got married in late 09 and I got the nerve to move out early 10. Looking back I realized him finally asking me to marry him was like putting 1 stitch in an amputation! Just didn't fix it. I am now with a man that makes me realize that I am worth more and that I deserve a happy healthy life...so for me, leaving was one of the smartest choices I have ever made!

I have mine pierced and when I got them first done they were really sensitive! In my case, after they healed, there was no problems with any tugging or nibbling, and in fact it heightened the enjoyment. Just make sure you ask how whatever your doing feels and go from there.

The craziest place I have ever had sex was on the grounds at the catholic school I went to. My mother sent me there as a kid and I hated it. My boyfriend and I were on a little trip around the city, I couldn't keep my hands, and mouth for that matter, off of him. We drove past and I told him we should have sex on the playground. It was just past dusk, the street lights had just come on. We snuck onto the property, had to be quiet because the nuns lived on a house on site. I ran to the swing set and he followed. I jumped up on that one swing that is higher than the others and started swinging. He came over and we started kissing, my heart was pounding as I had never had sex in public before. He slowly took off my shorts and I unbuttoned my shirt and helped him with his jeans. That swing was the perfect height! He grabbed the chains of the swing and started thrusting...it was amazing! I remember how scared I was that we were going to get caught but after a few minutes I didn't care. It was one of the most terrifying, exciting, memorable times of my life.

I know that, for me, self esteem is a factor of how I am in the bedroom...as with some others I get down on myself about weight...which seems to cause my drive to drop an inhibitions to rise...I know that in my fiancée eyes I am beautiful...just need to keep that in mind when I start to get weird about it.

Oregon that is! Hey all...I'm a newbie to the site...fiancé is a big fan...I thought it would be good to join to open myself up a bit...I'm coming out of a failed relationship of 10 years and realized there is so much I have missed in life...enjoying sex and intimacy included...I've read a bit and hoping I can explore the sexual side of myself as it has been dormant for so long...well...here it goes!