Wow. First post for me, and I choose this topic. Maybe getting this off my chest will help, or maybe someone will comment and help me out. Anyway, here goes:
3 years ago, I started a new job, with crappy hours, but great money. The wife and I needed some extra money, so this job was perfect for us, or so I thought.
After about 3 months at the new job, a new employee gets hired. She is beautiful in ways that just made me think about doing things to her that I would never try with my wife. We started chatting casually and exchanged numbers for the hell of it.
One day, we both had the day off, and my wife was at work, this woman texts me asking if I want to get coffee, as she needs a friend to talk to. I agree, and we meet up. She was having trouble with her husband, and it so happens my wife and I were having issues too.
We decide to go for a drive out in the country, and talk. Next thing I know, we are talking about how unhappy we both are, and how we have both never cheated. I told her I wasn't sure if I could ever cheat, and she felt the same way.
We pull up to this little pond, and she is sitting right next to me, looking at me. Well, one thing leads to another and we are making out like kids on prom night.
These day trips turned into her renting a hotel room, and well, for the next 3 months we fucked whenever we could, wherever we could. I knew it was wrong, but the sex was filthy and erotic and just so exciting that we couldn't stop.
My wife confronted me about it one night, and I broke down in tears, admitted everything, and she asked me to leave the house. I thought my marriage was over.
My wife had me come home the next day, and told me to pick her, or the other woman. I love my wife with all my being, and we are still together, better than ever.
My problem is that I can't seem to stop beating myself up over it. My wife has promised me she is over it and has moved on from it, and I believe her 100%. How can I get myself past this and forgive myself for the biggest mistake of my life?
I have turned into a shy, nervous husband with my wife and it is driving me crazy.
Sorry for such a long post everyone. I left out details, but I'm sure you all get the idea.
Quick note: I am no longer at that job, and have not talked to the other woman since I admitted this to my wife, and ended it with the other woman.
