charma

I'm not sure where to begin with this. I suppose the beginning would be a good place. I have been married for almost 7 years to a very nice guy. The past couple of years have gone downhill for us. The feelings aren't there anymore...we are more like friends. Over the past six months we have been discussing divorce, and more recently have decided that divorce is the best thing for us both. We have a few issues we are trying to resolve before filing so it may take a few months to get things rolling legally. But emotionally and physically we have decided that it is over. Also over the past five months I have met someone online. We met in a chat room. At first it was just someone to talk to about my marriage problems and such. But the past two months things have evolved quickly. I feel very close to this person. We chat and email daily. We are on the phone a few times a week for hours and hours. I can't say that I love this person, especially since we have never met, but feelings are developing fast. We have a definite emotional connection which I have never had with someone at this level before. We are planning on meeting in June/July. My question...am I cheating on my husband?? He does know about this person and says that an emotional connection is worse than a purely physical one because it involves the heart and I suppose he is right. But we have decided that we are over. After talking with my best friend about it she says that yes I am cheating on him even though we discussed and decided on divorce because it isn't final yet. So I guess my first big question is if/when I meet this other person this summer and we end up sleeping together will that be considered cheating?? Should I file for divorce/get legally seperated before meeting?? My second big dilema is this...the other person is a woman. My husband has made the comment that he doesn't want the kids growing up with someone who "doesn't like them". But I know he was referring to the fact that it is a woman and not a man that I am interested in. I wonder if he would have legal grounds to take the kids from me for being in an untraditional relationship. That worries me a lot.

This is just my second post, but you are all so knowledgeable I thought I would ask another stupid question. So be nice. I have never had a G spot orgasm. Hell, I have a hard time orgasming anyway. Just so you all know - yes I have read all of Mikayla's articles, more than once. I recently bought a new G Spot toy. I have had it for a few weeks but have been to "afraid" to get it out until today. Plus the hb has requested that I wait so he can join in on the fun. I have waited long enough, so too bad. The kids are at school, the hb is working and I am alone so what better time!! I'll keep this short and to the point. I was watching a movie, a good one at that. When I was really getting into it I decided to try out this new toy. After some time I felt the greatest sensation. But then something unexpected happened. Please don't think I am stupid, but I could have swore that I wet my bed. I felt this warm liquid and I panicked. I stopped immediately, why I don't know because the sensation was unbelievable! There was a "puddle" if you will on the sheets. I got up and smelled it wondering if I did actually wet the bed. There was no odor and it was a clear liquid. This has never happened before and I am a bit confused. My stupid question: what was it?? Let me ask one other question while I am here. The scene in the movie I was watching that got me so hot was a woman on woman scene. I have watched this movie with the hb and he is confused as to why I would rather watch two women rather than a man and a woman. He thinks only lesbians like to watch other women. Is that "normal" for me to want to watch two women? Maybe it is a hidden desire or fantasy. I don't know what to say to him except that is what I prefer to watch. To that one special friend, thanks for helping me open up. You are truly one in a million! THANKS!!! Curious, scared, confused, but VERY HAPPY!

I have been reading this site for a long time and have learned a lot, but this is my first post. I'm a little hesitant even posting this, but here it goes anyway. My hb is really wanting to have anal sex with me. I've never done it and never thought I wanted to until last night. He "accidentally" slipped his finger in and to my surprise it felt unbelieveably good. He didn't have a lot of lube, and I have read enough here to know that lube is a very important factor, so he had to remove it. I was too embarassed to tell him to continue with more lube so it didn't go any further. I don't think I am ready for him yet. I am thinking I need to start with something smaller and work up to him. So, I am in need of a few suggestion. I know what anal beads are, but not quite sure how to use them. I know that he is interested in them also so any advice would be great. BTW - I need to send out a very BIG and personal thank you to the person(s) who have helped me along the way. If it weren't for you I would have never been able to come out of my turtle's shell and open up. So this is for you!! Thanks for the help.