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I honestly don't know much about Lubes like which ones are safe and which ones aren't so I bought the only brand I knew of until recently...KY Jelly..... My big day will be delayed though due to the fact that i'm nursing a stiff neck...I woke up yesterday not being able to lift my right arm or move my neck much for that matter...I have to wear an arm brace because the weight of it hurts lol...haven't had a stiff neck like this since I was a kid..used to get them all the time then lol You should have seen me at midnight...I was saying Happy New Year with my head tilted to the left and when I was being hugged by everyone I wanted to cry because it hurt so much...still does and just sitting here typing hurts it will take about a week for it to completely go away. Its my dogs fault!! I have a teeny tiny Twin Bed and we don't fit in it together, he's 65 lbs of pure joy but he likes to sleep with me and not at my feet either. Its been cold here in Los Angeles lately so when I went to bed 2 nights ago my dog refused to move so I squeezed in next to him and slept pretty akward that whole night...hence the stiff neck

Hey Mikayla, I chose the 'Crystal snow bear" Because I have penetrated myself with a brush handle before...It took me forever because of the slight pain but I eventually was able to get it in all the way I broke my hymen myself and it hurt but not like I thought it would, and at first I hadn't realized it and panicked when I saw all the blood on my towel... Also when I masterbate I don't really feel anything when I just rub my clit....it throbs aand I feel like i'm going to explode but when I do itsl ike a dissapointment but when put my fat marker inside me and pump it in and out I get great orgasms...your articles really helped me here...So I saw the "Crystal snow bear" I liked the idea of being stimulated in all three area's at the same time. The idea that its hands free is what had me sold!!! We'll see what the clit stimulator does for me though...I have my doubts being as just my fingers alone don't do much for me...they are short and I feel like I can't reach my clit ...let alone my g-spot.. I get cramps in my back and thighs alot from trying to find the right position for me. The guy in my profile pic (Wentworth Miller) has these really really long fingers and oh my god when I masturbate now I think of his fingers instead of mine and it makes it so much better...in fact thats why I got my first Orgasm...I had the season 1 DVD of his show playing and paused it on a particular scene where he's using his hands when talks...Oh mama did that do the trick lol Oh hey I just this porn with a machine called a "Sybian" its like this white penis shaped dildo on what looks almost like a horse sattle...it (the dildo)either spins, or vibrates or both who know lol...and has this control that changes the speeds...its pretty loud but the girls where screaming like crazy.....anyone ever use this machine before?? its pretty interesting and looks like it makes you cum like crazy. I actually laughed though because I couldn't believe it was really making those girls scream like that. I know that porn stars fake it lol....but I read alot on here about ladies having orgasms that make them scream so thats why I asked...as I said in another thread knowing these porn stars fake it alot turned me off from porn. So when I watch porn now a days Its just because friends e-mil me the stuff.

Alright i've only been a member here for less than a month and i've already learned a hell of alot about Sex, masterbation, communication and a whole bunch of other great things. I am barely begining to fully understand Clitoral and G-spot orgasms...I've had clitoral orgasms while I have yet to achieve the illlusive G-spot orgasm. Now last night I was browsing through the toys and reading reviews...quite a few of which were from Mikayla and they talked about having great Anal orgasms. I was like...ok woah Anal orgasms?? I am expecting my first toy "The Crystal Snow Bear" to arrive tomorrow its got anal, clitoral and vaginal stimulation on it and while I won't be able to play with it (its the time of the month, and I have really bad stiff neck ggrrr) I am curious as to how you know which orgasm is which and if they really make you scream like the ladies do in porno's!!! I'm an insanely curious virgin as you can see and i've been told that when you cum your inner muscles contract and the guy can feel that around his penis and they like that feeling..I've also been told that when a guy cums his penis gets a little engorged right before he cums and that it even throbs and that you can feel a guy cum inside of you. God I sound like a teenager lol!! oh yeah anyone own the "Crystal Snow Bear"??? if so how good is it??

Ok first of all Happy New Year everyone!!! Secondly I can't try out my toy when it gets here...why you ask?? well Its that time of the month ggrrr and I screwed up my neck...its so stiff that even if It weren't the time of the month i'd be way too uncomfortable to enjoy the "Crystal Snow Bear" so i'm going to have to wait a few extra days to play with it. Thirdly...I just learned about and how to have clitoral and G-spot orgasms but I was just reading some toy reviews where some ladies including Mikayla said they had fantastic Anal orgasms....Never heard of Anal orgasms until now...what are those like? and how do you know the difference between the three orgasms??? lol sorry The toy I bought has an anal stimulator on it as well as clitoral and Vaginal...I need to know what i'm getting myself into guys and gals!!!!!

Thanks Rob that does help ALOT!!! My toy is being shipped via UPS and is scheduled for delivery on January 2, 2007...I know or atleast I hope they won't bring it before then but i'm still jumpy lol i'm also excited and anxious to get it already

Alright guys i'm in freak out mode now!!! I just found out that mail will not be delivered on Tuesday in honor of President Gerald Ford!! I scheduled the delivery of my toy for Tuesday and now i'm freaking out because now I don't know if its going to arrive the day before or the day after EEEK!!! I'm very tempted to cancel the order right now I mean I jump every time I hear a truck go by as it is...ugh I just want to get my toy without getting caught up in a fight with my mom and its all falling apart!!! As for taking my dog and moving in with my dad....won't happen EVER because I was talking to my dad and stepmom at Christmas about moving in with them and they said yes but that I couldn't bring my dog, that i'd have to leave him behind and I just can't do that....So i'm stuck here at my EVIL MOTHERS house until I save up enough money to rent an apartment. Anyways i'm working on getting out of my moms grasp...our relationship will be so much better when i'm on my own and she starts seeing me for the woman that I am I'll keep you guys updated on the situation!!!

Hey Mikayla & katprr My mom can't use my credit, she messed that up too, I filed for bankruptcy when I was 21..I got my first credit cards when I was 18, got careless and she told me that I if I can't pay for them I shouldn't use them. I realized she was right and stopped using them. However she had just gotten into her tv shopping networks and was at the time recieving 10 boxes a day. She saw the advantage of my then excellent credit and had me signing up for all sorts of cards at the department stores and even American Express. Well she started using my cards to order her crap and before I knew it I was $17,000 in debt and had no way to pay it off so I filed for bankruptcy. I was foolish to trust her when she promised she would make the payments. She refuses to take responsibilty and blames it on my brother because he did max out my gas cards and would not pay for them, and my stepdad too because he always maxed out my home depot card as soon as it was paid off. and yes she would scream and yell at me and do so as she drives me to the post office to return it. She refuses to speak to me like an adult or even treat me like one. She has three kids me being the youngest and she went 7 years without speaking to my sister and was deprived of 7 years without her 2 oldest grandchildren and didn't meet my sister's youngest daughter until she was 4 (they've since started speaking again) and now she isn't speaking to my brother because he basically took her house away and my brother just became a father (he has a son) and my mom will never meet him and says she hates him. I know I am an adult but if I so much as try to assert myself she flips her lid and she does threaten me, but she threatens to give my dog away because she knows i'm extremely attached to him. I did buy a toy and picked the delivery option that said it would be delivered Jan 2... it says its scheduled for delivery on January 2 but my stomach is in knots for fear it will get here sooner than that. I am tracking it and its already at its last stop before it gets to my door step. i'm scared out of my mind that its going to get here before she leaves Monday and will be that way until I get it and have it safely hidden. In case your wondering I bought the "Crystal Snow Bear" the original toy I had been eyeing is out of stock so I browsed for a long while before I decided on this one. If anyone has it please do tell me about it!!!

Hey Mikayla, The Truth is I am 27 years old....Your comment about my age seemed to insinuate that I am lying about it...but i'm not. As for the invasion of privacy thing....my mom orders things from tv shopping networks like HSN, OVC, AND ShopNBC using my name since she fucked up her accounts and the hundred other ones she made using everyone elses names. So she automatically opens the packages that come in my name because I don't order off of the TV, I prefer physically going to the mall and trying on clothes before I buy them. So she would no doubt open the box with my toy in it if it came while she was here, and then she would scream and yell at me for buying such a gross thing and force me to return it. She also feels that because I don't have a job and I am not paying for my room that I do not have a right to privacy...I'd love to put a lock on my door but everytime I've tried she's either made me put the kit down before we get out of the hardware store or given it away after i've purchased it. Unfortunately I am stuck living with her until I get my Driver's License and have enough money to rent an apartment so I have to live by her rules..If all goes well and I end up being paid by the state to be my grandparents caregiver I will have enough Money to get a place of my own and be in a whole new stage of my life by this time next year. For the first time in a long time I feel like things are looking up for me, that 2007 is going to be the year I grow up and take hold of my life and maybe finally get a boyfriend or two during all of this. When I do get a place of my own I will definately load up on toys, I'll buy a nice box to keep them in and join the ranks of all of you here on this forum as an owner of a pleasure chest!!! For now though I really want just one toy to play with....I'm a beginner with this sort of thing so I want to start with one and work my way up as I get used to this.

Hey Everyone, First off I hope Everyone had a happy Holiday Weekend Me I had to deal with My grandpa being hospitalized the day before X-mas eve and being there until x-mas day. He is not well and niether is my Grandma and i'm being asked to become thier caregiver. I am more than happy to care for them but I'm not sure I will be able to handle my mom and them In happier news I've finally experienced my first orgasm!!! It happened lastnight as a matter of fact. I spent the holidays at my dads and spent a few nights away from my mom, I went to bed a little early, stripped down and teased myself relentessly. I knew my dad would not bother me so that fear I have of getting caught that I have when I was masterbating here at home was gone. I was completely calm and relaxed and when I went for it I felt pleasure during the build up to my orgasm that I was not feeling before, my hips wiggled uncontrollably and I had to fight the urge to moan!! before the sensations weren't strong enough to make me moan at all, and what I felt as my explosion was nothing more then a small spasm. But this time I felt this fire in my belly and my nipples were tingling and felt like they were throbbing, I was ready to give up when I started to get tired of stroking myself when all of the sudden I exploded!! I had to shove my pillow in my face and bite on it to keep from screaming, and it lasted longer than 2 seconds!! I did the deep slow breaths like Mikayla advises in her article and oh my god it was just amazing and I was so exhausted afterwords that I fell asleep naked. I also have the opportunity to finally order my Vibrator without getting caught!!! my mom is heading off to Vegas with my stepdad new years day so I want to order the Vibrator tomorrow (Thursday 12/28) How long does it take for you guys to get your toys after you order them?? Like if I do order it tomorrow when will it get to me?? I would prefer it to get here on Jan 2 when I know for sure my mom will not be here....I've never ordered toys like this so i'm nervous lol!! Ok well thats enough of my blabbing...i'm off to have another Orgasm

How funny hey were a perfect match lol!!

Hey anyone out there? I have a question...well more like I need tips lol.... I have been masterbatining and practicing the things in Mikayla's articles....well since I read the articles i've come quite close to reaching the Big O...but no cigar I've established that the other night when I gushed like Old faithfull that was me squirting ...though I did not have an Orgasm So i'm thinking my fat Marker that I use to masterbate is not working for me....Since I can't just buy the vibrator on my wish list I was wondering if anyone reading this could give me suggestions on what other items I can use to masterbate??? I've heard about using cucumbers, Carrots, and Zuccini....but I ain't sticking vegtables inside of me lol!!! I mean if they go inside me it will be Via my mouth while eating soup and salad!!! anyways thanks in advance for the help

Alright so on HBO this sex show called "Real Sex" comes on all the time and I watch it all the time well thought about everyone here when I saw it the other night and thought I'd share with you what I saw...... they showed this life size sex doll comes in male or female and you can fuck them to your hearts desire lol.... The cock and the pussy are made to look and feel real when you play with them. Have any of you played with a sex doll??? if so whats it like?? They also had these sex toys made of like glass or something...all sorts of interesting shapes too the people that used them tapped on them and it causes the to vibrate...now either these ladies are good fakers or they had some pretty fucking amazing multiple Orgasms!!! Do any of you have one of these? if so how great are they??? They also had one episode where they showed this oral sex class where everyone got talked through giving oral which I thought was interesting, there was also a masterbation class (I NEED TO JOIN IT LOL!!) Oh speaking of faking it...have any of you ever faked it?? I was watching this other HBO special call Sexcetera and they interviewed alot of porn stars who all said they are usually faking it for the camera....well ever since then I have lost interest in porn, can't get into it anymore cause I know they are faking it lol. So last question...I promise lol Do any of you watch porn? does it turn you on?? what about it turns you on?? HaHa anyways I literally ran to my computer to post this because I was like I wonder what Mikayla, Tyger or Howard would say....I've read alot of Mikayla's stuff she seems cool by the way Anyways i'm off to bed...i'm going to hang out with My Dad tomorrow since I didn't get to see him on my birthday which was Dec 6th...

Hey Liesl, you sound like a wonderful person too, and you seem like a fun person to talk too!! I have a Myspace page though its smothered with everything Wentworth Miller lol. The song that plays when you open up my page is "The Joker" By: Steve Miller Band.....if my mom did anything right she taught me to love Rock n Roll!!! its not all bad with my mom we've had some great times together like the 2 Rolling Stones Concerts she took me too....Oh I had the time of my life both times!! I could listen to BB King one minute and Jay-Z the next...I have this huge love and apreciation for music that I credit my mom as well as my dad with. I am Catholic and yes I've heard all the preachings about sex and laughed at them...my cousin ( the mother of 3 with one on the way and all from different dads) calls me a bad Catholic because I don't agree with alot of things that are preached to us especially about sex...I mean where would the human race be without lots of sex?? I am not scared of Sex itself as I may have sounded in my orginal post, but i'm scared of dissappointing the lucky gentleman who gets to take my virginity...I've heard horror stories about people losing their virginity and getting dumped because they weren't good enough, then I've heard the horror stories about bad sex and wonder if i'm going to be bad at it if that even makes sense lol. The thing is i've watched porn, playboy channel, read stories heard all the tips and tricks and feel as though i'm studying for the big event.....I know I won't be afraid to talk to my partner about what I like and don't like and hopefully he won't be fraid to talk to me too The last semester I was in school I wound up in a sex conversation with a couple of classmates...I had just seen some porn the night before so when it came up I was like yeah well try this and that and see what happens...describing things I had seen in the porn....Well I guess they listened because after that they were always asking me for more tips and called me "The Virgin Sexpert" which was funny and for the first time in a long while made me feel all grown up I just wish I knew then what i've learned in the past few days on this forum!!!! So you graduated in 06' HUH....I graduated in 98'....Oh that was a great day and I barely made the grade!! I didn't know until 6 hours before the ceramony if I would be a part of it. That night one of my crushes who had been really mean to me in the begining then slowly became a friend aproached me and hugged me!! he said "Congrats on graduating" and then walked away (He didn't graduate, he got kicked out of the school a month before because he was failing so bad) Of all the crushes I had only one that treated me so well and we wound up being great friends from 6th grade when I liked him until we graduated high school...he found out I liked him and sat me down during Lunch in a quiet place and was completely honest with me he said... "I heard that you have a crush on me" I stuttered and blushed like a dork and said yeah "Well I am flattered that you like me like that, its really sweet, but I like Vivian and she likes me back... I didn't want to hurt your feelings by not saying anything and seeing you cry when you saw us together..I like you as a friend though you already know that so you can always talk to me whenever you want" He hugged me and I told him that I am not hurt and that I was glad he came and told me like a perfect gentleman....I still had a crush on him and even though I went on to like other guys everytime I saw him In the halls my heart skipped a beat I think I used all the other guys I crushed on to cover up my feelings for him so our friendship wouldn't be wierd. All the negativity, all the bad names I was called came after him and from friends of his, but he never once said a bad thing about me...atleast not to my face lol. I konw I said before that I've accepted the fact that i'll be alone forever...but a part of me still holds out hope If all else fails I 'll let my grandma hook me up with her nieghbor....something she's wanted to do for years lol!!

Wow Howard i'm sorry to hear about your Ex-Wife my mom has made comments about wanting to Kill herself a few times and I don't believe her but i'm thinking maybe I should now. She does pick on me to make herself feel better..I figured that out a long time ago. She hates that i'm always on the computer, that Its a waiste of time, when I was dancing she hated that too because on nights when rehearsals ran way to late she'd have to pick me up...she never came to a single show of mine and it would break my heart every time, even in High School when I was in the chior she came to maybe 2 shows and complained about where she sat oh and she would scream at me everytime she picked me up from rehearsals back then...My dad always shows up at my important events and he lives an hour away!! I love..no i'm obsessed with the show Prison Break and its star Wentworth Miller (Pictured in my profile) so when the show comes on i'm like an excited child and she tells me that i'm adult and shouldn't like a show that much. The other thing my mom does that I HATE!!! is that before I go anywhere like to a family gathering with my father or to the store with my nieghbor she tells me what I can and cannot say like i'm a computer. As a matter of fact today my stepdad was here (they aren't getting back together but he's always here) and his jacket was in the garage, he asked me why it was there and I told him the truth....my uncles were here a few days ago and it got really cold so my mom offered them jackets to keep warm. Well being playful he questioned my mom and that was that but after he left she drank a whole six pack and then screamed at me because I told him about the jacket. she said "It was not my place to be telling him about the jacket, that I Just wanted to get her in trouble" she calls me a "burro" whick is spanish for Donkey because Donkeys are stuborn. Then she's like you know what go live with your father I can't handle you anymore!! I hate to say this but I have always felt that my Mom not only hates me but is jealous of me .... She hates me because I Remind her of my father and the great life she threw away(I think she's still in love with him) She's jealous of me because I can do alot more than she ever could (she could not turn on a computer even if her life depended on it) I'm bilingual but a crappy bilingual lol the thing is though now that I think about it my brother puts me down too and says he's embarrassed to say that I am his sister...that its embarrassing to tell his co-workers that i've been in college for 6 years....I messed up really bad in the beginging of college and i'm sorry its taken me so long to fix that mess but I had to fix my mess. He used to make fun of the clothes I wore even. My 18 year old niece who is like my pride and joy is even embarrassed to be seen with me...when we are together she won't walk next to me and if I try to get next to her she moves away...but when we are at home she's all over me like a niece should be. So I sit here everyday wondering what the hell is so wrong with me that my family is so ashamed of me?? When I was really little and my parents were together I had hair down to my butt, and my hair was in is very thick. The guys on my dads football team used to tell me how beautiful I was and I would walk around telling everyone "i'm beautiful he said so" and my sister used to tell me I looked like snow white and that boys would be lined up around the block...I Beleived her too!! you know in high school a guy was told that I had a crush on him (I didn't though because he wasn't my type and I was pining away for someone already) He blew a gasket and told me something that to this day haunts me he said "Your so ugly not even a Lesbian would want you" I had crushes get in my face and put me down so bad that I would run away crying, I even had a crush hit me but that was nothing compared to that one comment...and the most ridiculous part is that I believe him!! I swear I am not a cyclops of a woman, and I honestly don't know why I've had such bad luck in love...for all I know they just said those things because all the boys I liked were popular and I wasn't so a popular guy dating a not so popular girl was not cool....or I really am as ugly as they say...I won't know until I go to a High School reunion and ask them why they treated me the way they did lol. Going back to my mom...she's good with the pets by the way lol....NurseMaid I laughed at that but its true because I have to clean the house, Garage, wash the car, feed the pets pick up all the dog and cat poop, and do all the yard work. I tell everyone i'm her SLAVE!! I know I should leave, andd I want to leave but my stepdad asked me not to move with my dad, he doesn't want my mom alone so I am here.... So what I am going to do is go back to school...finish out out my studies and get back into Dancing...then when I graduate I'll either get a place of my own (if I am working) or go with my dad until I get on my own two feet completely!! I just want my Grandma to see me happy before she dies...she always tells me she can't wait for the day when I bring a guy home to her...I think of all her grandchildren I am the most responsible one...in terms of having babies too young, getting married to soon, and staying in School. As for what Tyger said about sending the package to my nieghbor or friends house...I thought about it but my mom does it too gggrrrr. I don't have the slightest Idea where to find a sex toy shop or how I would get there without my mom knowing lol. My stepmom knows where to go though...the last time I was at my dads she sent me to their bedroom to get her glasses from her bedside drawers, she told me the to go to the bottom drawer when they were in fact in the top drawer and I stumbled upon her Vibrator!! she's almost 60 and she's got a toy...odddly enough I wasn't grossed out by it...I know my dad and her have sex ALOT, never heard them thank god but I'm not stupid ya know lol. I hope that if i'm ever married i'm still having sex with my husband when i'm 60!!! I actually just found out that my mom might go out to my sisters for the holidays....if she does I will order the toy on my wish list and make it so It gets to me while she's away so that way I can get rid of the box and find a good hiding place for it so she doesn't find it, as well as try it out without the distractions!!! Anyways I will keep working on the masturbation thing....try not to be pre-occupied or tired when I do it...Take deep breaths and everything else I've read in the Articles....I also will try not to let my dog get n the way....he likes to stick his nose in my business and i'm like ....no bad dog get away from there!! lol though i've seen some Animal sex porn that was pretty freaky if you ask me... I seen my fare share of porn but when I saw the Animal sex stuff I truly was grossed out. Well thanks to all of you for the wonderful advice you've given me...I truly truly apreciate it and you've opened my eyes up to alot of things!!

Ok so howard asked fora description of myself so here it is...................... I'm hispanic, about 5'1, shoulder length dark brown hair, dark brown eyes (I wear glasses), tan skin, and my wieght well at my heaviest I was 200lbs....I hit that and cried so I took action and as of right now i'm down to 175. I actually left out the part where I don't have A job, or a license and no friends. No I didn't lie about the girl talk and being silent...that always happens when i'm with my older sister and her girlfriends. sex always comes up and I kinda just sit there like I said before, but I swear i'm gonna bust out with all thesetips the next time i'm in that situation and shock the hel out of them because I won't be the innocent Virgin anymore lol. The G-Spot orgasm thing.....I highly doubt I had a G-spot orgasm because there was no moaning or twitching or shuddering going on...It was starting to feel good until I peed... I do pee before I masterbate but in the case of the peeing incident I had been drinking alot of Soda and gatorade that day and was going at it for almost 3 hours starting at 12:45am and when I peed the clock said 3:15am. I had to have pee'd because of the sheer amount of liquid that came out of me. I soaked one of those really big towels, as well as my dogs bedding. At any rate I constantly lose my orgasms because I hear my mom up and about all hours of the night (The woman has ashitty sleeping pattern) and get scared that she's going to hear me or something. I can't do it during the day because I have ZERO privacy! No lock on my bedroom door and my mom will come in without knocking (According to her I don't get privacy because I don't work) so my only option is to go at it at night after 11pm and try desperately to have an Orgasm before she's up and about so I try until I'm so exhausted and pissed off that I start crying. I have gone 4 hours of nonstop masterbation with no success...I want a Vibrator so bad but since my mom orders crap off of the TV in my name i'm afraid if I order one she will open the box when it gets here thinking it something of hers. Then she would throw a shit fit and ask why I would buy something so disgusting!!! I have one on my wish list though ..A G Spot and clitoral vibrator and I want it so bad lol As for how I dress....hhhmmm sporty I guess, I like my tennis shoes and dance/workout pants and tank tops. Before I took a break from college I was a dancer there and got in the habit of always wearing the dance clothes. The few times I have gone out I've done the Levi's and a dressy blouse and worn make-up, buut wearing make-up makes me look like a teenager trying to pass as an adult rather than looking more my age. I go to Vegas alot with my mom and stepdad...well used too and I rarely got carded.I get carded more when buying beer and cigs for my mom who by the way is an alcoholic that was sober for 7 years before falling of the wagon last year. My whole childhood she was an alcoholic and is partly to blame for my parents divorce, and she treated me, my brother and my sister like crap..still does se loves to tell me how incapabale I am of succeeding in life, that no man will want to be with me with my greasy face, yellow teeth and fat body....yeah she shows no mercy and she was telling me things like that when I was a little girl. Don't get me wrong I love my mom dearly, but she messed up so bad that she's 52 with bad credit, no job, she's recieving Supplimental Social Security, can't drive on the freeway, can barely drive on the streets and needs me to go everywhere with her because of her panic and anxiety attacks. Yeah my brother and sister are so diffrent from me, they are married with kids and a life worth bragging about. They were the ones who were allowed to drink at 15, they had all this freedom andwhen it was my turn I wasn't allowed the same freedoms....I was forced to go to church, they weren't, I had a cerfew they didn't... silly I know but its the truth they had more freedom then me. I am at the point in my life where i've accepted that I'm never going to have a man in my life, but the month of December is the lonliest month of the year for me...My birthday is Dec 6...2 weeks later its christmas then a week later its New Years Eve....all big events that regular people spend with boyfriends and husbands, wives, girlfirends... Me I spend those three events all alone and I actually cry from the lonliness I feel. I know living with my mom is not good for me but I can't leave her!! she gets drunk and passes out in the garage, If i'm not here to drag her into bed she will stay out there and get sick, and the dogs and cats will not get fed. My dad has asked me numerous times to live with him and my stepmom and I did go live with him for a month....I almost had my drivers License too because my dad sat there and helped me study for a weeek and I passed my written test on the first try, and I was driving my dad around within days...If I had stayed a little longer I'd have a drivers license right now but my mom called me and begged me to come home....I fought her on it but eventually caved because she promised she would teach me how to drive which she bever did. My dad treats my like the adult that I am, asks me for advice and lets me in on his and my stepmoms conversations sometimes and I tell ya I feel like a million bucks when i'm with my dad and stepmom. ok wow this is a sex talk forum ad i'm going on and on about my emotional issues lol sorry I'll stop now!!

Sagittarius You are fun loving and independent, and you don’t like any of your partners to get in the way of that. You enjoy having a lot of flings and short term relationships because you get bored in a long term one.<In bed you are demanding of your partner. You want to have hot sex all of the time. You also like to experiment sexually, with different positions and fantasies. Sex matches: Aries, Leo, Libra

Hey thanks for all the advice guys Someone said they were confused by my post because I said i'm a virgin but had the opprtunity to have sex when I was 18....Here's the deal on that: The guy who's name is Will, He acted like a sweetheart to me when we first met and hung out (no kissing or hand holding, but he did hug me) He really only wanted one thing from me..SEX. But I told him I would not even consider that with him or any guy until after we were in love. So what does he do??? he tells me he loves me but I don't believe him and we go out with my friend and her jerk off of a boyfirend. For someone trying to get in good with me Will spends the evening putting down everything I like and believe in. We have a fight and he profusely apologizes so we start talking again and he says he wants to fool around with me at the movie theater where he works. We work out a double date with my friend and her boyfriend I'm all for fooling around until I get sick the day of the movie date. I'm not sick enough to not be able to go, but i'm sick enough that I am not up for fooling around. I was supposed to wear a skirt for easy access but I don't I wear jeans and Will is mad when he see's me. Anyway we get into the theater and I tell him I'm sick i'm not in the mood and quite frankly he's just not treating me right. needless to say that night I had the perfect chance to have sex but I didn't because Will had disrespected me numerous times and when he shoved his hands down my pants after I told him no that was the last straw!!! besides being sick I realized that I didn't want to lose my virginity in a movie theater. So there was no kissing or hand holding ever between us, Will pissed me off to much Anyways just so you know I do masterbate, but have yet to achieve the big O....I went at it last night after reading that you should take deep breaths instead of short labored ones...Last night was the closest i've come to the big O...and probably would have reached it had I not made myself pee somehow....yes I peed and its embarassing and its the second time so far I do not own a Vibrator and my mom who I live with would flip out if she knew I bought one sooo I only long to have one I use a fat marker as my toy...its probably the saddest excuse for a sex toy but its all I have to work with...I do have KY jelly which I use to lube up and i've busted through my hymen which hurt like hell when I did it accidently while masturbating causing me to lose the big O once again. I suppose alot of my childhood experiences is why I have subconciiously associated sex with being bad... My mom and dad had a VERY UGLY, NASTY AND ALL OUT WAR OF A DIVORCE because he had had an affair and had been caught when I was about 7....I was also always forced to be in the room when they fought and often through things...I cried so much as a little girl...my sister got pregnant at 16 making me an aunt at only 9 years of age and her whole life changed...Though I don't know what life would be like with out my now 18 year old niece who I love to pieces as well as her sisters. Many girls in my grade at school got pregnant and stopped going to school...all that made me want to wait until I am married. I suppose all the negative affects of sex imposed on me as a little girl have alot to do with my fears of it..because all it brought was bad news to the people around me. In High School girls got dumped when they wouldn't put out, and girls who decided to put out to hold on to thier boyfriends where labeled as whores and sluts. Even now as my moms second marriage is ending I know he left because of the lack of intimacy between them and because she didn't want to do things as simple as going to the store with him. They had not slept in the same room in two years when he left a month ago...two years since my mom has had sex and she blurted it out during a drunken phone call to him. My mom has her own issues with sex...she was nearly raped twice as a young mother. She clams up when I try to talk to her about sex..its uncomfortable for her but my dad who wishes me not to date unitl I am 50 (he's only kidding and being a typical dad and i'm his only daughter so he's overly protective) is more open to talking to me about sex then she is. As for remaining a virgin taking alot of will power...it doesn't take much effort when not a single guy has ever showed interest in you in fact its easy. I had alot of crushes in high school not one liked me back and not one was nice about it either so on top of repressed feelings is the low self-esteem, respect and confidence. I don't think i'm beautiful, I look at myself and see this ugly horrid overwieght monster. I am 27 but can pass easily for a 15 year old so that affects how the guys see me as well. I'm a mess obviously and want to clean it up but I don't know how lol. Probably the hardest thing about being a virgin is when i'm sitting with friends and the sex talk comes up....I'm the silent one every time. Wow i'm glad I found this place because its nice to talk about sex and not be embarrassed about it.

Hey there, I'm new to this kind of forum, I'm 27 and A virgin....I'm such a Virgin that i've never even been kissed or held hands with a guy. But that's not why i'm posting lol, I'm posting because I've heard so many horror stories about bad sex and guys not wanting virgins because we are inexperienced. I am totally freaked out by sex now...I am so scared that I am going to be so bad that i'll get dumped, i'm scared that I'll never get laid because I am a virgin!!! I had the opportunity when I was 18 to have sex but I chickened out at the last second because I didn't want to dissapoint him (he had alot of girls before me) Is my fear of sex justifiable? I mean should I be worried about being bad in bed or is all the bad sex talk overrated? Do I have a reason to be scared?