This post is a bit late, since I am new to the forum. But I thought I'd offer some advise/experience. It is great you were finally able to find some 'happiness', and it indeed does get a lot better! Is your room situation like one single room with beds, no real privacy? That is the typical dorm room, unfortunately. But there is a good thing. You probably know your roommate/s better than anyone else, since you live with them 24/7! Their quirks, habits, etc. I've found after sharing a dorm like the one described with another girl, that I've learned her sleeping habits, and thus know when the engage in some 'playtime' . When she is awake/newly asleep she is very mobile and rolls around a lot. But when asleep, no movement. I also know she is an extremely deep sleeper, she's slept through fire alarm tests and outrageously loud alarm clocks (through I remain very quiet still). Ever since I've learned this, I have not been deprived (which I was slightly worried about when I came to college). For all I know, she knows my sleeping habits and has done the same Also, there is the shower, which always means some private time. If you haven't done anything in there, I definitely recommend you give it a try. And if you are interested in toys, it would be very easy to get a discreet, waterproof toy for shower time.