Thanks for all the advice :-) Right now we are trying to work things out, I'm still not sure this is going to work but I'm trying. I'm not being 100%naive either, its just that our lease doesn't end until the end of October. I have previously spoken to the building manager about moving b/c I don't like our building and my original lease was supposed to end June 1st. I'm sure if i really really tried and talked to a lawyer or something i could get out of it but I can barely pay bills now. I can't afford our apt by myself anymore because I lost a job in January and i/I'm only working part time. Even if we could get out of our lease I don't have anywhere to go, my parents have a tiny house and my sister and her daughter were having a hard time and just moved in with them. And being this age all of my friends either still live with their parents or are also living in small apartments. Also right around the time this was all happening he got laid off. I don't think this is an excuse but I also know when I lost my job in January I was devestated. The day of my first post was the only day things were really uncertain. Since then (fri, sat, and sun) he has been really sweet. he seems to understand that I can't just forget about it. I have forgiven him, i had a huge problem with my mother when i was younger and held something against her for 5 years, I just can't do it again it didn't help me with any aspect of the problem. He has told me a few times in the past week that he only wants to be with me for the rest of his life and that he is willing to do anything and everything to prove that he loves me. So, we have 4 months to see weather this will work out. he did find a new job, and I was also hired at the same place, he thinks he did some things b/c he was lonely while i was working. We can carpool together, and I will be getting paid more than I am now plus overtime so I can save money, safety net no matter what happens. And, while I know its not absolutely necessary to explain myself to all of you... I had loaned him money when he over drew a bank account a few months ago, and normally he has given me x-amount of dollars per week and I write the checks to pay the bills. I feel like trying to work things out over the next few months, pass or fail, I am more apt to get paid back at least part of the money I am owed. I will be back with updates, as I said before I like you all because you are honest and not afraid to speak up, even if it may hurt. You all are great. Again, THANK YOU!!