i don't think he's freaked out that he has to clean me up asap, but i guess he feels bad so he takes it upon himself to do it and in the process, it's really awkward. i should just tell him it's okay, and not to worry. if i was squemish, this would make sense, but clearly i'm not. as far as it being "taboo" for men, i had no idea about this, which helps me understand a little, even though i can't wrap my head around it. thank you guys!