Female Ejaculation & Peeing?

[Curiouswillinginexperienced]

I'm still VERY new to masturbating and I've been reading all the articles on TOO TIMID and on the internet. I bought a Ultimate Pearl Beaded Rabbit Vibrator and loved it, although i wish it was a bit longer. I'm still a virgin and probably will remain one because I've never had an orgasam when in sexual play. I'm really big into foreplay: oral, kissing, and touching but i've never been able to get an orgasam with my partner. I think its more out of fear of not knowing what an orgasam would feel like and i felt like i almost urinated on my partner. I've been trying to figure out exactly WHAT AN ORGASAM FEELS LIKE... When i was using my vibrator, i think i've been getting G-spot orgasams. I know in the tootimid article some women can ejacuate anywhere from an oz to a quart but SERIOUSLY, when i "ejaculate" its the same amount of urine i excrete, sensation, sometimes its yellow and sometimes it has the "urine" smell. I do feel a sort of "orgasam" but I'm wondering, is it because im really peeing? I try to hold my urine in but i cant seem to control the "ejaculation"/urine (which ever it is). I usually feel relaxed and tired after i do "pee". I've tried peeing before masturbating, not drinking so much water before and i still get the same results? So i go see a urologist? I've talked to my gyno but i dont think she really understands what I'm saying and says its normal... I really want to have sex, i'm just scared of honest to go "peeing" on someone. what's wrong with me?