Ocean, I have been you. Now I completely understand having a bad relationship and not trusting yourself to do the things you want to do. I was married for 10 years and had just plain married sex. If I asked for anything like to dirty talk and playing with my ass he was totally repulsed at the thought and just wouldn't do it. I closed up and just settled for a long time, that sex wasn't fun. BOY was I wrong. I found a new guy and we are now married to make a long story short. My new hb is very open about sex and wants to try and do everything. In the beginning, he wanted oral more than anything and I was very unexperienced in the subject. I started out slow and realized how much he loved it which made me want to get better at it. Now if I just mention that I am horny he is all over me because he knows he is getting head. If the porn bothers you watch it with him. Hell put on something skimpy and lay there with him. Believe me he will take the hint. The more you learn to trust him and yourself the better sex will become and the more you will be willing to experiment. Believe me it took just a little patience on my hb end for me to open up. But he just loves the rewards.
