i am a sole survivor of a firefight near Fallujah Iraq April seventh 2007when the convoy my strike team was escorting was ambushed by insurgents who when chased took child human shields my team gave chase and caught them in a building down the road and engaged them leaving three of our team the insurgents and shields dead our 1st lt took his own life 16 months later after 3 mo.s in the hospital in bethesda md. i was sent home with severe ptsd survivors guilt and anger issues i had thought about crossdressing a few times before and thought what the hell and gave it a try i find it to be an escape from the nightmare that will never go away and the sadness anger and hate i lived with every day when im dressed im not that angry asshole any more hell im not even the same gender im just happy go lucky krissy just having fun and doing her own thing.. my wife was very supportive but the regular me was too much and we have since divorced. now i dress most of the time when im not working or in public im not as angry as i was and she and i are talking about getting back together