AH, thank you VERY much! Well he is deffinately NOT into the whole clean thing, lol. He actually loves to make me orgasm more than once. He's made me do it 4 times in a row once. Let me tell you, I was tired when we got done. Anyways, I think Tyger is right. It seems to be that way. I must give off a certain reluctance too. We've had a couple of issues lately. I, unfortunately, had a bad child hood with my father. He was abusive and obsessed with pornography. No I wasn't raped, thank god! In any case he prioritized it over my sister and I when we were younger and would view it while we were home. The computer was in the dining room. How am I supposed to get food if I can't pass the dining room to get to the kitchen? Well, my boyfriend (being a MALE) enjoys pornography. Perfectly normal and all of that but I have some problems coming to terms with it. Especially since he views it behind my back and lies to me about it. He knows I am a bit iffy on it so he says he gets scared to tell me. I kind of get jealous of it and view it as cheating and then I feel like I'm ugly or unimportant. I would rather him not view it. I don 't mind viewing it possibly together but he uses it for his own sexual pleasures and satisfaction and then he becomes obsessive and our sex live goes DOWN hill. He isn't interseted in having sex anymore when we view it and when we do it ....well it sucks. I have now had to put a lock on the computer so that he cannot get on. I want to trust him but I don't understand what the problem is. We almost broke up all together and I asked him taht if he was curious and wanted to split up that we could do that and he could experiment with others. He said it wasn't worth it. He also claims that he doesn't really like pronography and he doesn't know why he is interested in it. He is a young male..I understand why he is interested in it. His hormones are through the roof, it's normal, I know. So he suggested that we make a date once a week for an hour or so and discuss anything that is on our minds. I agreed to be a bit more experimental and he agreed to be more respectful and be truthful. It wouldn't bother me as much if he was just truthful about it because what if he takes it a step further....although...he doesn't seem like he would go that far. His main thing is that he is VERY curious about anal sex and of course I started this article asking about it. See? I'm trying. I just have to get my endometreosis figured out so that I can stop all of my discomfort and pain and I should be well on my way! Oooh, I also found out that he likes nylons! That was fun. We are currently trying to move into an apartment together so that we don't have any outside porblems such as family. Unfortunately we are in college and he's been staying with me and my mom and my sister. Mom's are not good to have around when you're trying to have a relationship. I love her dearly but she tries to control too much. I'm hoping this move might bring us both closer again and maybe I can loosen up.