I have been trying to talk to hubby and tell him what I want. Wich is hard to do since I'm still working on knowing it myself. But he dose not seem to want to do what I ask , unless it is for him. I know he is under a lot of stess working a lot (280 hrs last month alone) but I just want more! Is it to much to ask for? Just a little please, more then "come on lets go!" Today we started out a little better I was on the phone when he said "Come one get of the phone and blow me " I smiled and said just a min. He started to Play and then I had to get off the phone as soon as I do his phone rings and it is work again!! we finaly start getting back to "playing" when he stops and wants to 69, ok sounds good right? but no we get some lube and a toy but I start out on him and him with the toy on me ( not what I want but ok I will go with it) we go for a while then wait so he can stay longer I ask him to do some things to keep me going he dose very little and not what I ask then says get on top (ok I am desarate at this point) so ok But quickly he says "stop I'm comming" ok so I do and he dose any how I get back on trying to get me some were and he gets done again!! And he is realy done this time, but not me. and now he is working again. And I am stuck! Then the girls wake up. It is like this a lot. Am I asking to much? am I being unrealalistic in wanting to feel good too? like I am more then a mom, wife, and Taxie. I know I am not what I use to be but, I want to at least feel disirable or worth the time. Sorry about all this. But thanks for letting me vent. Kat Soup