whitefang2002

ahhhh...........that sounds so cute. I always wanted horses!!!!

I might have to try this stuff out. I do use coochy and love it along with the coochy mist. I just wonder if "magic" will make the hairs grow in slower...if that makes sense. Have to check this out sometime!

sorry it posted it twice.

another update: I am not sure how to say this...but I feel duped. I think I found out the real reason that he dumped me...is that he just gets sick of being with the same person for that long. Um....just recent evidence i should say. lol. lead me to believe this. But it only points to that within the last 2 days he (i am fairly sure) is already seeing someone else. I am not saying that he is sleeping with her...yet...I just know something fishy is going on. And oddly...knowing that makes me feel better about the break up. He lied straight to my face last night!!! He went out to the bar...and got drunk, came home...and then for some reason decided to sleep in the bed. (for all of you that don't know...when we spit he let me stay in the bed and he slept on the couch). I was like ok whatever. Well then at 130am he gets a text...and so I sat up and shook him and stayed sitting up to make sure he opened it and read it (cuz usually he falls asleep in the process of that and then it beeps...and i wanted to go to sleep). So I was turned that way and could see the phone when he opened it....it said it was from lindsey. That was enough for me...I didn't need t know what it said. Then when he was done I said who the hell is texting this time of night? And he said "well, i texted scott right before I came up here for him to call me in the am so I get up" I was like oh....well that said it was from lindsey. He shut up...then another text came and i was like that better be the last one. So he texted her back and then deleated all his messages (which i have noticed he started doing the past 2 days or so....and he won't go anywhere in the house without his phone. Like to me I see that as he is trying to hide something cuz before he would miss place it and forget it and then ask me where his phone was...now its attached to him!). Then he said..."im really drunk" And then I rolled over to go to bed. And "scott" has been calling at 6am to make sure he is up.....I mean come on..........what guy friend is going to call to make sure his buddy is up for work????? Doesn't make sense. Also he now has to leave the house or go to the fathest away room from me to talk on the phone......... CAN YOU SAY FISHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So now for some reason I feel better bout the break up. Not sure why. Maybe becuase he lied right to my face when i saw who it was from with my own eyes. And then this morning I asked him about it and he couldn't tell me why he lied about it. So yeah.........and when "scott" called him........"he" was asking him questions and corey was like with no one. He was answering about who he was with last night. And then he was like hang on....and he went to the farthest room in the house..... Yeah something is going on for sure. And sad part is...I am going to talk to his mom about it. Cuz she couldn't understand him either and this may help her. Me and her are fairly close. I know I shouldn't go "rat" him out...but she should know because she doesn't know why he can't hold on to women. He has long term relationships in the past...and they ended the same way mine did. And he gave me the same "reason" as the other people he dated. Some how I may feel better becuase I caught him lying...and who knows that he lied to me about during the relationship you know. So then I'm thinking....maybe its a good thing I'm leaving now....

Another update..........I GOT A VAN TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEY!

whew nice pics in here!!!!!!! God is it hot in here I will be gone for awhile....so maybe when I get the net and am feeling better then I can post some new ones. If this challange is still going...I hope so and once again i will mention that my pics are in my gallery. Thanks everyone for posting! This has been a great thread!

Thanks pappy!!!!!

thanks suzy

my daughter is never quiet......so i amsure the library will be dificult. lol. I just hope that everything else falls into place for me and my daughter.

also had to add this...couldn't remember if i wrote it before...but it will be quite some time before im back on here. I am sure it will be after i have money comeing in and being able to pay all my bills and then i will see if i have money to get the net at my new place. hope you don't miss me too much!

I am not blaming anyone pappy. Well, I have an update for all of you. I just found out that i got the townhouse i wanted in the town over from here. So happy I got it. I do the lease on Friday! YEY!!! SO .....now ex SO has been nice to me today. And is going to help me move. Even though I am single with no job and no income.......things are kind of looking up right now. Otherthings have happened but no need really to explain them becuase they resolved themselves. I Have lost 10lbs from all the stress of having to move out and find a place and car all in less then 2 weeks. I am kind of happy to see how it goes on my own and to know that i can try to focus all on me and my daughter now. I never thought i would feel this good given the circumstances. Thank you all for your support and I hope things get better for me from here on out. I love you guys!!!!!!

Things still aren't going that well. He wasnts me out by the night of the 18th. I still don't have a place. My parents won't let me move in for a week or two till I get my place....even though they have 3 spare bedrooms...... So I am sure that I will end up in a hotel....

I'm still not feeling good about this. Still physically ill that its hard to eat cuz i'm always feeling like im going to throw up.

Thanks everyone. Sorry to see my post keeps taking stray paths..but thats what happens. OMG....I wrote a long post and I must have hit some button and it erased it all!!!! GGRRRR! Let me try to figure out all that I said. I know that I have to stay away from him awhile to get on my feet. Cuz honestly I would be so angry and hurt if I saw him with a woman. (as someone mentioned above). I know it will take time. We, me and him, already talked about this. And we both want to stay friends, but we BOTH know it will take time to get there. We both know that its not going to happen over night. He is a really nice guy...just aparently not the one for me. And I will just have to accept it. On the other hand.... I found a town house I reallly liked and seems doable. I got my check from the lawyer from my dad passing away last year. It is only $2400...but that is better then nothing. I have to get a vehicle and items for the townhouse.....that is after I am moved in and have everything paid up and then I will see what I have left. Because of this check I can no longer get emergency assistance from the county. Which really sucks since I have to get a vehicle!!!!!!!! I jsut hope that the town houses approve my application since I dont' have a job right now. They know Im looking and that my childsupport should kick back up this month or the next...not sure how long that is goign to take. This is no where near longer then what I first wrote and accidently deleated....and knowing me I forgot something. lol. But this is all i am going to write for now! Thanks again everyone for your support!

Thanks everyone for your kind words. Just to make it clear I wasn't saying that I was a man-hater by no means. Just need to take a break from them. Hey they say you find "the one" when you aren't looking right??? Things aren't going to well with the apartments right now...or jobs. I am looking into income based rentals. I have 2 that I am going to look at right now but I am not sure the specs on them so I don't know yet if they fall into my realistic catagory. I will be stopping in now and then until I move out...and then I am not sure when I will be back. I am supposed to start up my college stuff this month but there is no chance in hell I will beable to....not will all the stuff going on and so I will just have to wait till fall. And I am ok with that cuz that means I should be settled down with me and my daughter and have some place to start. I wouldn't be able to pass the classes now anyways....and I am already physically ill from all the stress.... now ex SO still wants to be friends after this and he still cares about me still...all that has happened and what not....I really think it is the commitment issue. He is still playing with my daughter ect. And I am trying to break her of calling her daddy. And no it wasn't my original idea for her to call him daddy in the first place. I never said it and I don't know where she learned it from....but she started calling him that herself. And I couldn't get her to stop. So I just let it be. Besides, her father isn't in the picture anyways...and I don't want him to be. And LL I know you said that by my other posts you said you could see it coming....well I do write every little thing on TT so I will explain....Since that last time we got into a fight...things have been gettting so much better! We hadn't had another fight or argument till this. And the posts that I made like 2 days before this one....he had already dumped me. Even his mom doesn't understand him and thinks he's not making good choices. They are a very close family and so that was kind of a surprise to me and I was and am kind of happy that she is along with me on this. But I am not going to make her talk to him or anything like that. That would probably only make him mad. Ok I think I am done for the day. Bye bye.

Well, me and SO broke up. And he wants me out ASAP. And he knows that I don't have anyone to turn to and no money. and he won't let me keep the car that he once said if something happened between us that i could keep it. I am so mad, upset, and heart broken...as I didn't see this coming. He said, not last ngiht but the night before, that he was done. He can't do it anymore...and he They also want an evicion notice from SO. My daughter calls him daddy and I still love him. This is going to take a long time to get over. I feel like i don't want anything else to do with men after this....as I have had so much bad luck with them. My only choice was my mom and step dad and i sucked it up and gave them a call. Nope i can't move in with them. My mom is taking the rest of the day and coming over and she is going to take me out to try to find an appartment. But once I move....I am sure I won't be on the net for a long long time. i thought I would be able to change his mind cuz the only reason he is doing this is cuz he is scared of commitment.... But I couldn't change his mind...........

Its mostly due to my past and I don't think it will ever go away... And LL he is the one that is scared of commitment. I love him and so on but I think I may have said something that freaked him out.... I was happy till last night when he ticked me off. lol. But that happens. I am just confused right now...

I think he is scared of commitment.

I realized im scared of life. Of being out in the real world and living alone..well with my daughter only...cuz I don't think I can do it. I don't have anyone that would or could help me out. No family no nothing. I don't like feeling like I will be all alone in the world....

THe only thing on this topic that i have heard and see...is that they get darker after you have a kid....just like some women get the dark spots on the outside corners of their eyes and then some get the dark line on the belly. It is said that somepeople they don't go away and some people it does. Doesn't sound like you had a baby.........so im jsut guessing its hormonal since thats what causes it around pregnancy.

Oh yeah i would love to see those pecker pics. HAHA.

Here is a link to mine that is in my gallery. http://forums.tootimid.com/index.php?autoc...=si&img=813

I'm in with everyone else. I can't help but smile everytime I look at him cuz I love him so much.

Thanks SS I do see that now. Wow he got the next one up fast!

So what wish are you granting me Rob?