raniedaize

I'm certainly trying to! All my stuff that was in the garage has been found, repacked, and put in my trunk already. Now it's time to get everything else. Sadly, I'm working four days this week and can't go home during them. Tomorrow I'm off but won't make much of a dent since I'm having to spend it running around tying up loose ends before Sunday. So, that means Saturday will be absurdly busy with me frantically throwing things into boxes. I want to get it done quickly so I can go out with my friends and family on my last night in town.

life

Oh yes! I can hardly believe that it's finally right around the corner!!! But, can you please tell me WHY it has to be NOW versus BEFORE when something might actually be forming between me and a guy who lives HERE and not THERE?! I am alarmingly new to the whole dating and getting-a-man thing. Entering a relationship is a foreign and scarey concept to me. And I don't want to appear insane or overly needy, but not too self-sufficient either (as in, "Why would I need you when I'm doing so well by myself? Hmmm?).

YES!!! TPBM dreams of sex in the rain.

day

I remember the last time I had a hot and heavy session, I was in the mood for spaghetti. So, that's what he made me...and some fabulous local wine!!! I swear that man pampered me.

Perhaps it's not so much that he's "not interested in sex"--as you did say "he does have sexual desires"--but that the part which is "supposed to react to sexiness and allure" just doesn't feel free and secure enough to do so. If he grew up in an ultra-conservative, overly controlling, sexually oppressive, and/or abusive family environment, he may instinctively feel as if sexual enjoyment is a thing to be loathed instead of loved. Going against the grain of being "raised to NEVER make the first move" can be tremendously difficult, and fighting to allow certain enjoyments that were previously forbidden can create great discomfort and pressure that could easily result in loss of erection and lack of activity. (If it does stem back to his upbringing, a counselor may be a good idea.....or buying handcuffs/whip for HIM to use on YOU--lightly, of course-- to work on and push through his issues of dominance. Just a thought )

A week from today I will be over four hundred miles away in my new state!!!

melons

fruit

I've been friends with a girl for five years, and I ran into her brother this past weekend. I was quite admittedly a little bit giddy afterwards. It felt soooo nice to be the one shown attention to by the guy whom all the girls swoon over. I, on the other hand, couldn't remember his name to save my life the whole past five years! Maybe that was the trick? Aaaah, but is he G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S!!!!! Perhaps even a little bit interested? Time will tell. I think I'll try just continuing how I had been doing--perfectly content single and a genuine friend to his sister (she's blind). Only, now I actually know his name. heehee

flames!

If there was no way around having to choose between the two, I would most certainly pick the first one: me loving the guy who would likely never love me back. I personally would feel happier that way instead of being stuck with some high-maintainence guy I'm just not into.

on

Thank you.

Ladylove is right. I was most definitely talking about abstaining from sex with another human being or even kissing guys I'm not willing to be in a relationship with. I apologize if my analogy was offensive to anyone with previous or current alcohol sobriety issues. Meanwhile...47 days going strong.

audacious

I like them too! ...still have yet to buy my own though.

A place known for alligators!!!

>>>Big grin!<<<

Thanks, y'all! I'll be working as an EMT for another ambulance service far, far away. They are very highly spoken of, and everyone with whom I currently work is green with envy. I am very happy about the change and step-up in companies. The new city is also incredibly cleaner and less racist than the one nearby where I grew up. Plus, it has these random palm trees that kind of just make me smile.

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!! I relocate hundreds of miles away to my new state in 3 to 5 weeks tops! I already have an apartment lease signed and everything. I am so excited. No more PTSD environmental triggers to worry about! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm leaving for my interview today!!! But, that also means I'll be away from here for the next few days. Hope I do well!

gentlemen

My birthday is in three weeks, and I am so excited about the girls-only weekend that starts TOMORROW for me and my sister! She's married, so of course I feel like it's way over-due! Hahaha! Yippeeeeee!