Members KimmyQ Posted April 6, 2021 Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 I have been checking out the site as well as reading the forum for several weeks as guest and decided to take the plunge and create an account. Writing a new topic... looking to get some incite as well as suggestions with those in similar situations. My husband and I have been married for several years (3rd marriage for both of us).... we get along great for the most part, lol. A couple months ago I mentioned to him that I had "a dream" and it included he and I and another man. without any hesitation he said "I do enjoy and miss blow jobs from guys"... I figured I would be pissed or grossed out or at least have some sort of negative reaction but I actually wasn't bothered at all by his statement. i actually found it quite interesting. We spent the rest of the evening talking about his "experiences" and agreeing that we would incorporate seeing him with another man so I could then make a final decision about making my "dream" become a reality. I knew I didn't want to be present the first time he hooked up with a guy because I was not sure if I would be jealous or uncomfortable and didn't want to put myself into an awkward position. we posted an ad, one that would allow me to log in and track conversations so that nothing was said or planned without my knowledge. He made plans the following weekend to meet up with a guy and that guy agreed to my husband filming. He got a blow job. I watched the video, he sent it to me before he even came back home, I wasn't jealous, I thought it was hot watching some man take my husband dick in his mouth and watch it grow and get rock hard until he ultimately came in the guys mouth. This has now happened a few times... all the times my husband has filmed for me to watch at my own leisure. Now.... we are a crossroads! We communicate with this gentleman on a regular basis via group text. I see the interest my husband has in taking this guys virgin ass. I see the interest from the other man wanting and craving my husbands cock. I am still all okay with that... my problem is do I want to be part of or present when this happens? They both want me to be... I think it would be a huge turn on but... I have some insecurities about myself as well as being perfectly happy with the sex life he and i share together as a couple. I have told my husband that I don't feel the need to be there. I find the excitement of hearing or seeing it later just as satisfying. He still keeps asking me to be part of it. Why isn't the free pass I have given him enough? I feel frustrated now that the things I have allowed and given permission too are not enough. He keeps asking for more. Not sure if I created a rabbit hole that I will now never be able to get myself out of??? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members 6981 Posted April 6, 2021 Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 I think since you brought it up to start with he wants you to be part of it and fulfill your dream. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members KimmyQ Posted April 6, 2021 Author Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 4 minutes ago, 6981 said: I think since you brought it up to start with he wants you to be part of it and fulfill your dream. Yeah but what about the part of it being a dream... not a fantasy of mine and me telling him I am not at that comfort level? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members 6981 Posted April 6, 2021 Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 I think maybe he’s feeling guilty and thinks it would help if you joined. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members KimmyQ Posted April 6, 2021 Author Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 13 minutes ago, 6981 said: I think maybe he’s feeling guilty and thinks it would help if you joined. Could be.. thank you for your thoughts on it Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Rio Posted April 6, 2021 Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 I don't read it as him trying to force you to let him do something more. I think he loves you and because you brought it up he wants to have you included. Maybe to him being with this guy, even though it's with your permission, still feels like cheating. With you there wouldn't be so. Just my two cents. Would you feel comfortable just as an observer and not a participant? You said you saw various videos and you don't feel jealous or uncomfortable. Maybe that's something that you can do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members KimmyQ Posted April 6, 2021 Author Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 41 minutes ago, Rio said: I don't read it as him trying to force you to let him do something more. I think he loves you and because you brought it up he wants to have you included. Maybe to him being with this guy, even though it's with your permission, still feels like cheating. With you there wouldn't be so. Just my two cents. Would you feel comfortable just as an observer and not a participant? You said you saw various videos and you don't feel jealous or uncomfortable. Maybe that's something that you can do. I totally appreciate your 2 cents, thank you!!! Could very well be that he wouldn't think he was cheating if I am there. I guess it is time to talk a bit more with him and ask some more detailed questions. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members michelleddd Posted April 6, 2021 Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 Join in by or not at your own pace. He should feel lucky you want him to experience pleasure in that situation, not all wives are that understanding. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members KimmyQ Posted April 6, 2021 Author Members Report Share Posted April 6, 2021 3 minutes ago, michelleddd said: Join in by or not at your own pace. He should feel lucky you want him to experience pleasure in that situation, not all wives are that understanding. Thank YOU... I appreciate that! I agree, he is very lucky lol 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Love Getting Pegged Posted April 13, 2021 Members Report Share Posted April 13, 2021 On 4/6/2021 at 3:08 PM, KimmyQ said: Thank YOU... I appreciate that! I agree, he is very lucky lol I wish I had a understanding wife like you I have to be discreet when I am getting screwed in the ass 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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