wendybird74

Be careful... From experience i can tell ya that emotions get twisted after seeing your SO with someone else... I did this wrong tho in my younger days... I was in a bad place in my life... My Bf at the time and I went to a bar... This girl started kissing me and i really enjoyed it... We did this for hours and it got heated so her bf and my bf had other plans with two very drunk girls... I ended up pregnant and i terminated... Long story short... Plan be wise and be mindful of who you are with... Have safe words eye contact and know that this is a dead end to relationships sometimes so if its not something you care to lose go forward but use protection i wish i had..

Love life is at a dead end road... We don't sleep in same room it's a rushed event that we only do when someone is built up and even then only he gets his release... Its not because we don't love each other. Its life's organic process. His work went to nights into mornings. We have an autistic son who i am with 24-7 who cant sleep without me... And now I find myself sleeping with son till he falls asleep going into my bed until SO comes home moving to couch and so on... Emotionally physically and sexually I completely give up... I haven't been touched in a loving or romantic way in I cant remember when. I fantasize of past relationships two in particular both partners were super steamy but i find myself even when someone tries to hug me pulling away anymore... I know getting older and having kids especially with special needs takes a toll I guess I am with a white flag... But mournful of a sex life that once rocked my world....

I am a hot mess most of the time even I get tired of my shit

Always wanted to be married tho not sure I am wife material tho I am a mess.... I am bossy I can't cook I am awful with money I drink now and then I believe in God but I cuss him out often... I an right side of the bed then nope I am left side I am I don't know what do you want to do when indeed I do know what I want to do.... I cave in more then not but when I got a fight on me I fight it to death.... I am laughter a and tears I yell when I am pissed I am loving to a fault except when I am done then I will throw daggers if it comes to that I have a big heart but get taken to the cleaners often so I guess it's not completely my down falls that get me it's the places in between

Nope... Been close twice the first time I ran the second time was a toxic relationship.... I would have but thank god for un answered prayers because we were awful to each other... My boyfriend now has been married three times and is scared I guess

In the rare occasion I get to take a bath to take time for just me I use what ever is in my budget lol but I also use coconut oil to shave from time to time it does help keep things smooth I use this oil for many things it's my secret weapon in my girl kit lol lip gloss after shower befor I dry off sometimes a drop in my hair suntan lotion... But my fav is brushing my teeth once a day to get any coffee build up and taste out of my mouth I brush my tongue too if you have not tried this you should it kind of rocks

I don't know about anyone else but complacency dies not work for me I have to have change regularly or something to look forward to or I go stir crazy

I can pick on my sisters but if anyone hurts them yeah body bag will not be the only thing the fuck tard will need I am the oldest and let's just say I care we went through a lot together and we don't need any ass hats

Omg me too the guy in the murder for hire case and I had a beef all the time I got in his face once because he was beating up his pregnant girlfriend he and I did not see eye to eye and everyone told me to lay low because he's bat shit crazy well so am I when I see a man woman or child being tossed around like a rag doll I called the cops many times on him and the rest of the people rarely saw them come check it out the north side and down town of Spokane is no joke glad I live in a safer area now... I have had my hous broken into as a kid a few times and this is the second time someone pulled a gun on me it doesn't scare me as much as pisses me off my adrinlin kicks in and out of want to inflict pain on the asshat who could ever do such a thing the first was a guy my sister was hanging out with who seemed not right in the head we were having a party in our younger days I told him and his friends to come with me to go get food and left them down town they were not good people I felt it and they proved it there was going to be drinking and friends these guys seemed hang affiliated so my sister red flag went off and I stepped up alone that was pretty stupid but I wasn't taking my sister because who knows how that would have gone

I wish you all well I know this step to check in with you all had opened a diologue for me and my boyfriend and thanks to you all for words of wisdom things have been a lot better I am not an easy person on people I expect a lot I expect if we are going to engage in anything we do it as a team and when I feel like someone is poking holes in my boat when my back is turned I get frustrated I want this to work we do good when we work together I think we both just got complacent and maybe forgot to check in with each other I feel like that is important and we will fall and fail each other from time to time but I suppose the real test is communication I was just as bad as he becaus I gave up I felt defeated and I didn't voice my frustration to him I shared it only with you guys because let's face it you are all faceless you all are easier to voice frustration to because it's not the confrontation it's bouncing ideas and words off of and getting feed back I sure appreciate the help tho it helped me find better words I know you are all strangers but I offer a smile and a huge thank you thank you thank you for hearing me and being so very amazing at helping me to find some sort of wits about me to say something I truly love my boyfriend he's kind he's hard working and he's got an enormous heart I think he just needed a little nudge we are always going back to face challenges to work through and we all do that better as a team we can get through this

I have great neighbors now but the last place I lived.... Oh my god I had a knife pulled on me one of the many that lived in this shackles behind our house died in the house from drug overdose. The shack shared a driveway with our home so the drug deal going on effected our everyday two Am visits from cops having strange people looking in our Windows the nervous pacing of driveway and not to mention the murder for hire case the one o had most conflict with was involved in... After we moved it was all over the news yikes I was pregnant then Abe I was in this guy's face all the time he beat up his girlfriend in my yard so yeah I had a beef with him lay a hand on a woman in front of me I will puff up like the state puff marshmallow man and my days ad being my own bouncer at the bar I tended in my young days comes out in me lol I was 125 then 5'4 I also am a country girl so I don't play nice when I see people being beat up on

I grew up in a hug and kiss family it's funny because there are people I meet along the way that are not huggers but know I am and know they are going to get a hug... I am a hugger and I don't care... I know what it's like to lose people who mean the world to you in an instant and I also am an over sayer of I love you... I have even slipped up to checkers or so on its my hello good bye because again I know what it's like to lose someone in a blink... I have also been in places in my life where I know that hug that kiss that randome I love you I see you can save a life can save a person from doing something harmful to themselves and others so if my gig makes you uncomfortable I am ok with that nobody has punched me or ever told me to not hug them I mean ever! Also I find it funny how some people great with kisses and I am always that person they do this to. Like my neighbor my boyfriends dad my friend and her family who are Italian it seems more of the older generation but I must be an open person where this does not seem awkward or unacceptable. My friends gave me ha hard time because I once kissed a homeless man it wasn't a French kiss it was a hug and a kiss on the lips an I see you and it will all be ok they thought I was weird I just might be but something tells me to do these things and I am ok with it so I suppose I am an over toucher

The reasons we are uncomfortable are the reachable moments so find out why my boyfriend and I are working through our stuff and it's getting better but it's because we have to learn how to talk to each other he's tender and I am in your face I can stand to work on that

I get that questioning look of my nationality all the time... People can't place me lol one a guy walked up to me and asked at first I was set off because he came right out and asked me my nationality and then he explained to me why it was flattering but I understand the uncomfortable places in human nature I just don't understand working through them life is made up of a million things to work out and if you are not doing the work what's the point? We are here to do the work to learn the lessons to find out what we are made of if we are hindered by what makes us uncomfortable that is where the work begins then change it be pro active in the lessons god set out to teach us if we are anxious why if we are addicted why if we are shy why find the value in what you are confronted with and do the work

I love when you get a vibe from someone you cannot deny and have to say it out loud you are beautiful... I get so misunderstood a lot because I voice this it's not always a flirt tho sometimes it might be man or woman if I feel something is absolutely voice able I say it lol it drives people crazy but life is not about the moments unsaid it's about the moments you voice the moments that take your breath away at least I would hope so