I am also sorry to hear of your situation, but I too know what you are feeling. My husband had the same 8 years ago and he still loves SEX. He did not go with the implant, He was only about 2 1/2 and 1 1/2 He has a couple of the hollow dildos and some others and yes we can do with them it is still not the same. I do miss the real big hard COCK between my legs but I am very thankful for what I have and what he gives me, do your self a big favor and don't think that going out there looking for another as it is not going to help you . Instruct him on what you like orally and hopefully that will keep you happy, and enjoy everyday