firegal

We're supposed to sign up for our on call hours for the fire department, which are 10 shifts before the 10th and then 10 more after the 10th. Hubby and I always cover the weekends since no one else does so we filled in our 20 shifts right away. Got my ass jacked today, since I'm a Captain, as people were complaining that we signed up for all our shifts before we were supposed to. Mind you, there are people who never sign up for weekends and we have always been covering them since we started our on-call schedule over five years ago. The big thing is that they increased the on-call pay from $1 an hour to $2 an hour so now people are wanting to sign up....for the money of course, the hell with helping the community! So after half my ass was chewed off from that, the other half was chewed off for my QA/QI's (Quality Assurance/Quality Approvement's) on our ambulance run reports. This is where I do corrective criticism to our members on their reports, stating what they could improve on and what they did good on. Other members are getting upset because I'm being so critical and "mean" to them. I explained to our Assistant Chief (it's her job to do these anyway...$350 a month while I get $85 a month!!) that I'm just trying to protect them and our department should we get sued. Of course this wasn't good enough for her and she went on to tell me that some of the members are even going to the Police & Fire Committee complaining about me! By the time my entire ass was chewed off, my hubby was back from the fire call I wasn't able to go on. I told him what happened and to take care of the on-call problem he erased our numbers from the on-call schedule and said "if they want to bitch about us signing up for the weekend shifts then *&$% them, they can cover the hours then!". I then sent an email to the Assistant Chief telling her that since I can't please anyone with anything I do there with the QA/QI's, I no longer wish to do them and I will use that time to do my Captain duties (which I haven't been doing anyway because of the QA's) and grants. The funny thing about all the bitching and backstabbing that is going on at our department is it's the WOMEN that are causing it all!!!!!! All the men are sick of it!! My closest friend and myself are more of the tomboy type and get along better with the guys and would rather spend time with them. We're sick of it too. It's so frustrating!!! Thanks for letting me vent! Too bad I don't drink because I could really use one! Firegal

I was raised in a reserved family. Although my parents were open when talking about sex, they always made it sound natural and normal. Fast forward to when I met my hubby. I lost my virginity to him when we were engaged. Of course the first time was kind of like my Mom had explained how it would be and not like in the movies. Then things started to change. We started buying toys, he started talking dirty to me, etc. Although these are real turnons to me, I just don't feel right about doing any of it. I love the feel of a dildo inside me and I love the feeling I get when I watch porn, but I something inside me feels "wrong" about the whole thing. Kind of like I'm being bad or immoral. Mind you, I did not grow up in a religious family. In fact, my parents both grew up in strict Catholic households and they didn't want me to grow up that way. So why the heck am I feeling this way?? How can I get over this hangup?? I want to feel sexy when I have sex with my hubby.....not feel wrong. HELP!!!!!!!

Very hot! With the dread of going back to work tomorrow after a week of vacation, I needed that! If you have any more, I'd love to read them!

Woah! Too hot! My yearly exam is in a couple months....I can only hope that my doctor does this to me!!

Yep! We did this while we were staying in the same cabin with my parents. Horny but not able to have sex, we masturbated with each other and at the time of orgasm we just kissed & breathed into each other, masking our sounds. It was one of the most erotic moments I've had. Not just because my parents were in the room next to us, but just the experience of it.

I'm shiny & pink too....seem to have a lot of them here!

People who flaunt their money....Yuck!

First time with my hubby was before we were married. I was scheduled to work at the PD that night and we started making out at his apartment. He asked if I was ready and I said yes. Short and sweet, not like I thought it was going to be i.e., how it's always portrayed in the movies all steamy, sexy and hot. Although, that night at work was the best because I kept thinking back to it and got all hot again....had to wait til I got off (no pun intended!) in the morning to take care of it! I did have one very bad memory about it though....ended up getting my first yeast infection afterwards! That sucked!

More, more, more!! You're too much Pro-Driver.....thanks for the relief!

This may sound silly but when we're at a fire (my hubby's also a firefighter) I just look at the hoses and get turned on. Even more so when we're humping the hoses (an actual firefighter term for draining them out after a fire...too hot huh??) and they joke about how I know how to handle the hose so well.....well, let's just say I get more wet from that than from actually fighting the fire.

We need more men that think the way that you do! Your wife is a very lucky woman!

Thanks Mikayla and sorry it took so long to reply. To start off, yes I am overweight...have been most of my life. No kids (infertility probs) and I've always been shy about my body. I'm once again going to try to lose weight. I feel a little more optimistic about it this time, although I don't know why. Maybe once the pounds start coming off, so will my self consciousness problem. Hubby is sober....a little under three years. I'm not sure if it's actually changed his attitude about sex, but I'm more horny than ever before. I think the biggest problem is that the years of alcohol abuse may have had him develop erectile disfunction. He did try Viagra, but our insurance doesn't pay for it so it gets costly. The suicide stuff is in the past. Currently I'm on meds and have had psych help in the past. Unfortunately, it seems that once in a while the meds kick in and make my sex drive null....that really sucks!!! So, that's about it. I'm hoping that once our finances get squared away, we'll be able to get more toys and be able to explore more areas that we haven't even thought of. Hubby's standing up in a wedding next month and I'm dying to get a remote egg to make it a memorable day for us. Thanks for your help and I can't wait to get to know everyone on here better and start adding my comments as well.

My name is Sarah. I'm 36 years old and have been married to my hubby for 13 years. Lots and lots of ups and downs, mainly downs. Infertility, suicide attempt (me) and alcoholism (he's now in recovery) are the worst of the worst. Somehow we managed to get through everything, although our sex life isn't as fulfilling as I'd like it to be. I did buy some toys from Too Timid and we had a few nights of great sex, then nothing. I'm horny most of the time, but am so self-conscious & have such low self esteem that I have a hard time telling this to my hubby. You'd think after 13 years of marriage I'd know he loves me for who I am, not what I am. But I still have a huge hangup with him seeing me naked. Anyway, I'm hoping to be able to make some friends here and maybe get over my hangup.