SpiderQueen14

Thanks gals.. We are one crazy couple! After 7 yrs married we are loosing our minds now!(him with his school girl thing he wouldn't say and me well this! LOL LOL LOL) I actually was talking to my husband today about going to see my doc about my hormones and he said no I'm fine but I don't think so and I'm not on Birth Control so it can't be that.. I have thought what the heck is going on.. I think maybe being his sex drive being lower then mine is making mine even higher.. does that even make any sense? I don't know what to think but I'm going to call my GYN for an appt. OK this might sound silly but what do I say..but its a bit embrassing to go to my Doc and say well I have issues right now... OH MY GOODNESS.. I actually do have to call her as its time for my annual check-up... thanks guys for any help..

HMMM Thanks gals for your input.. I think it that my hubby may want that fantasy of having "innocence" I guess but since he is not one to Express himself when having sex maybe the wrong words came out. It did put me to think though like I said it made me go HUH when he said but only cause it so out of character for him to say anything other then it feels good and well the "norm"... OK so I have to ask another question you guys say its norm. right so him downloading porn with H.S. looking girls with those school outfit..is that normal too? so he has a thing with School girls is it.. OK now I'm so confused! LOL I'm just trying to figure out where his mind is I have tried to talk to him about our fantasies and what each likes but he just chances the subject or makes a joke.. so how do I get him to talk...

OK I think there is something wrong with me.. REALLY.. my sex drive is kind on getting on my nerves right now.. I know it sounds like I'm crazy right.. Since I had my last baby my sex drive has been off the roof more then ever.. Its like I feel that's all I think about in between everything I do.. Does this happen?? Even if I have sex which my hubby will have with me almost everyday its not enough I will still pleasure myself after he leaves for work and then want sex again. I feel so bad cause he tries I know he does but since he works 2 jobs I feel I should leave him alone but I CAN'T.. yesterday I even went into a chat room and "role played" That's when I said OK WHAT THE HELL is wrong with me?? Is this normal? I feel like I'm a sex addict or something? When I was single I had never been faithful to ANY man.. I would always love the challange of keeping 2 men and loved the "power" I had to be able to stop any man in his tracks.. Well now 4 kids later.... doesn't happen too much unless I'm alone! lol but this issue of my sex drive is getting to me and I think if I worked outside like I use to..( became a stay @home mom 2 yrs ago) what would happen... and that thought scared the shit out of me... as I love my hubby w/ all that I am...HELP someone.. what is going on w/ me? has anyone experienced this "battle" w/ themselves.. any advice I'd be thankful...

AHHH yes Hot Wax.. its very erotic and very hot (no pun inteeded) It was something that I would do with my oldest son's father... back then my sex drive was "normal" I would say well then again I think it was normal since his sex drive was way over the top then mine! LOL . He was the one to bring the wax into our "games" and me with the 6 inch heels and the bondage.. it really turned me on.. Now that I'm married my hubby is not into it I have asked him if he would like to try but he just gave me the ARE YOU OUT OF THE PLANET LOOK.. lol lol..

OK maybe I'm corny.. but I love a man in Suit.. OH my goodness.. just thinking about it.. hmm LOVE IT... my hubby rarely has a chance to dress up but when he does.. Oh my goodness it takes all my strength not to grab him and undress him...lol

OK so I have asked my hubby before what would be his fantasy and he tells me he really doesn't have one..................YEAH RIGHT to me doesn't EVERYONE have 1 even if they don't admit it?.... well I think I just broke the first layer of that mystery... My hubby always has said he likes it when I keep my glasses during sex he has told me it makes me look innocent.. and so I have kept them on a couple of times.. A while back he had told me he wondered what I would look like with 2 pony tails.. and I was like HUH but that night I did get all cutie up and put 2 high pony tails and a baby doll and glasses... BUT he came so late that he fell out and nothing happened.... and so I let it pass.. BUT yesterday.. I don't know why.. I shaved OH I shaved a la Bald Eagle... and of course was eager to share.. lol.. And so he came home and I gave him dinner.. no not rice and beans this time! LOL but just simple sloppy joe.. he ate we talked and rested.. And so the baby finally went to bed.. Last night he was sooo tired I REALLY didn't want to "bother" him you know so I went about my business with my little rabbit.. after a while he kind of woke up and asked what I was doing ok maybe I put my wet fingers on his lips.. (I COULDN'T HELP IT! LOL) and he woke up and said what are you doing.. and when he went to move the sheets to go down on me he said OH hmm what made you shave like that.. and I just smiled... so he went down on me and then we he entered me ok all and good right but then he said what I think puts all those other things together... He said .. Feels so good.. its making me feel like I'm molesting a little girl... for a sec. it caught me of guard cause I was like HUH.. what.. but then it was like all those things he said before clicked.. OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so that's his fantasy.. After all said and done.. I thought.. hmm so he wants some little innocent girl... OK so anyone can help me out fellas any of you have that fantasy too? OK OF COURSE I have to ask though.. is that weird though???

As I finish up feeding dinner to everyone I go and pick up the last of the plates which hubby has in the room... Hmm its was good he says.. really glad you liked it... (rice, beans and chicken...lol) As I turn to leave he calls to me and I turn and he asks where are the kids.. They are fine they are watching TV & the baby is sleeping and I smile and turn to leave.. How he managed to get to the door before me I still wonder and he asks but where are you going.. and I look at him really with a confused face as I am thinking DUH to put the plate in the kitchen... almost at the same time I am finishing my thought he grabs me and kisses me so deep I almost drop the plate in my hand and at the same time I feel my face get flush and my pussy get wet.. I look at him with a face like WhAT WAS THAT.. and he grins at me and I say I have to put the plate in the sink.. at this point I expect for him to do what he does always do move aside.. and I always think HELLO don't you know that is me saying just grab and take what you want?... I guess my thoughts have finally have been loud enough because he tells me no.. and grabs me again and kisses me deep and bites at my neck all I can do is drop the plate and moan at how good it feels but then I stop him and ask what happen but not even letting me finish what I am saying he pushes me on the bed face down and I am still "playing the what are you doing act" but all the while all I could do is feel my pussy start to ache to feel him inside me.. At this point he is grabbing at my long hair and not like he always does just to move it out of the way to see when I am sucking on his cock no.. he's holding on to it as to say his control is now his.. and all I can do is smile but he tells me I wouldn't be smiling for long... and so being who I am being controlled is something I want but don't let it be.. I am stronger then him in bed... Or am I? Not tonight it seems as he rips my pants of and smacks my ass so hard it aches and stings but feels so good.. and he begins to tease me with his cock he knows I can't stand that as my pussy is getting wetter and and then begins to play with my clit and all I can do is try to turn around so I can suck on his cock but he doesn't let me and he laughs I am so horny at this point I am almost screaming for him to fuck me.. and he slides so deep inside me it makes me what to buck back and fuck him but he pushes me down and takes himself out of me.. OF COURSE this gets me so mad and tell him what is going on is he going to fuck me or what but he laughs and he says OH I AM going to fuck you.. you horny Bitch at this I pause as he doesn't talk too dirty to me though I always have wanted him to and I say HUH and he tells me to shut up and get back in position.. and all I can do is grin and turn around as I do I feel him pull at my hair and grab on my breast as he puts himself inside me again and he starts so slow I feel like I am going to lose my mind.. all I can do is call out his name and tell him to fuck me but he stops and says NO BITCH its when I want to fuck you and turns me over and grabs my head to his cock and tells me No suck on my cock and I take him deep in my mouth hmm the taste of me on him makes me the more wetter and it makes me want to touch my wet pussy but he stops me and uses his finger and begins to finger fuck me.. and it makes me stop sucking but he says DID I tell you to stop... and Pulls me so his cock is on my lips.. hmm as I suck I can feel he is getting harder and its making me lose my mind again... and he stops and pushes me on the bed and goes down and starts to lick on my clit and finger fuck me at the same time.. now he knows its gonna make me come.. and tells me I'm gonna make you cum harder then last time when you splashed all over the bed.. it takes all I am not to scream so loud that someone will have to check if something is wrong with me as I am about to cum he stops and turns me around and starts to fuck me and tells me if I like it.. as I try to answer him but tells me he can't hear me as he pounds harder and harder into me... at this point my body is trembling as I feel myself cumming so hard I can't stay on my hands and knees and I fall down but he is still fucking me and I am still cumming so hard OH my goodness all I can do is moan and he grabs me and say open wide and swallow mmmm as I feel his warm juices going down my throat...hmmmm and lets go of me and says ok now you can take the plate into the kitchen....... That's my fantasty my hubby is not DOM AT ALL.....its always me hunting him... OHHHH MY.. I need a cold shower now! LO LLOL

Well its seem I always seems to be the Dom one.. Though I want to be the SUB it never works out that way. as when hubby has tried to be the DOM it doesn't seem real.. Does that make sense? Thats my fanasty for him to actually REALLY mean it when he's DOM.. its just not in my love's blood to be like it.. Me on the other Hand.. Well look at my Name SpiderQueen..LOL its because I have a tat of a black widow on the back of my neck! LOL..need I say more ...lol

LOL actually it isn't my coworkers who will be asking more like my boys who are 8 and 4 who already asked Mama why are you smiling so much! LOL LOL (I'm a Stay @ home mom) LOL LOL and thanks you guys.. Guess what I'm making for dinner tonight! LOLLO LLOL

OH MY...... very good story.. TFS

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO guess what! Last night WAS AWESOME!! YEEAHH OH YEAHH.. ok let me control myself.. it was so much fun! So Hubby went to bed with the baby while I waited for the boys to get back from my MIL they didn't get home until 12am.. Ealier in the day I cooked just reg. rice and beans and chicken (yes the spanish in me! LOL) and when Hubby came home I served him as usual he went into our AC room after a long day of work and I finished up with the baby (feeding and bathing her) and in the mist of it he Chripped me on the Nextel telling me that the food was VERY GOOD.. I was like OH YEAH really.. and went to the room and asked would you like a 2nd serving.. and he looked at me and said but it will put me to sleep then (SO I GUESS HE WAS THINKING WHAT I WAS THINKING AFTER ALL....) I told him its ok he could eat again and asked if ihe wanted more and he said yes please so with that he ate and sure enough shortly after he did fall asleep but I let him sleep.. (see Howard I did it! LOL I let him rest! LOL) and so then like an hr. later put the baby down and went to the living room to listen for the door, boys came and put them to bed and returned to my room and I went and gave him a little kiss on the lips and he woke up and I said I love you.. and then we started to laugh cause Gabi (baby) woke up making noises like Hey what are you 2 about to do.. I though oh well there goes that and said Well look whose awake and just layed on his chest which I always do.. but last night for some reason he actually got HARD.. I was like OH WHAT IS THIS?? and I looked at him and smiled and he got HARDER?? HUH?? is all I said but I went with it?? ( I keep thinking I cook daily what was so different in this food! LOLLOL) but we started to fool around and our kind Gabi fell asleep again ! YEEAAHHHHHH... so we got into it.. and then he said OH wait a mintue and got those sleeves he had bought.. OK WHAT GIVES>.. those things were so little once he put them on! ! LOL and I didn't feel a dfference really and we laughed about it.. but he still kept it on.. and we con't to have fun... and then we both came.. AHHHH I thought well that was fun but all of a sudden he's talking to me about something & pulls my head down on him and I'm OH REALLY and so I give him some head and LORD AND BEHOLD he got Hard again! YYEEAHHH ( ok I say yeah because lately if he had cum and I tried to give him head he would get the giggles and not get hard.. ) and so we went at it again.. and he changed the sleeve but still nothing.. and then AHH my fav. words.. "turn over for me" OHHH YEEAHHH... and then we REALLY started having fun.. we both Came REALLY hard.. and I am ONE HAPPY Camper as Gabi didn't wake up and we both cuddled afterwords but I did feel bad cause he only got 1 hr. of sleep after that.. BUt I did call him already this AM and told him I loved him and that I woke up with an extra smile.. He just laughed.. OHHH yeah...... just had to share my happy night!

I am having my own issues right now BUT like you once a time ago could cum with out stim. on my clit UNTIL my Hubby made me cum. I remember the first time it scared the SH** out of me cause I said WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT! LOL and the position I was in was doggy but with a pillow under me by my tummy face down A** up ok he hit my G spot I guess and that was it I came.. and do you I released something at the point I was the one All these year with the other men that I was with I was the one stopping me from cumming with only them.. I was like HOLY SH** its been me.. even though you may think no way I want to give control its like something inside of us that doesn't let go.. Well at that moment that my husband did that.. it was like I lost control and had no choice in letting go it was so wonderful I cried and he was like HUH and I kissed him and I started jumping up and down and said WOW BABE you unlocked Pandora's box... and he has been able to make me cum in any position but if we do it Doggie OH its like WHOA baby.. Hope my advice helps you in some way.. (HUGS)

Thank you so much Tyger and Howard for your kind words. It has been a hard year for us as it has been alot of emotions being losing Anjie and 2 weeks later finding out we were expecting (we were wanting to wait but it seems we were already expecting when Anjie passed) We have gone through help but I know what we did was more for me because hubby would go where ever I needed to go or whatever I needed to do. He is my heart I KNOW he loves me as no matter what I want or need he gives me or gets for me even if at the moment he can't he finds a way.. expect for sex right now?? which is funny in a way right. But also I don't think he has really griefed for our Anjie. He didn't cry for her and still hasn't I mean he shed a few tears but to cry as I've cried.. screaming and no none its been me and he's been there holding on to me though I've told him that I am there for him and wish for him to grief as well and he said he couldn't just cry for some reason though he tried..Though he's gotten books on Griefing and read.. Though when we were leaving for our trip he cried I mean REALLY cried cause he said he was going to miss our sons and Gabi and me.. Which I mean I thought you are crying cause your missing us but you couldn't cry for Anjie.. I know so mean of me to think that at that moment right but I did..He has gone to groups with other parents who have lost a baby and like I said I know he goes for me not for himself.. Do you think that has something to do with it? I don't know.. Like we have a site for our little girl me I go there daily and write to her there.. As for him I don't know.. I mean I have asked him about how he feels and he has written a few times to her on her site and each time he does its a bit more of what he's been feeling but then it takes for it to be a "special" day for him to write... Ok this post is going to the South... As for his 2 jobs he's always done that since I've known him and Sex was good always.. but then again I was working as well now I am a SAHWM maybe that could be it? AHHH if I could only get in his head without getting him upset you know.. Cause I know he's going to say well I'm right here you could.. WHICH I AM DOING.. or he's going to say Well you went to sleep.. WELL I WOULD WAKE UP just like I wake him up.. Right now I am wishing so bad for him to act like he wants me even if its once..to kiss me passionately you know I miss that and I'm always ready even if I'm tired hmm now that I think of it one of the toys was to stay harder longer OH SH** could I be doing this since my sex drive is WWWAAY higher then his and well lately when he's done I'm just starting and I know he feels bad since I have to end up playing by myself??? OK SERIOUSLY I'm going to start pulling out my hair now! Hey Howard How about you talking to my Hubby for me! LO LLOLLOL

So I'm back from Vac. and while away I would call hubby daily and he would say he missed me only cause I said it first.. and though I do believe he missed me I don't think its as much as I missed him. I know he loves me but I really feel like is he in love with me?? I don't know.. what to think I'm confused... He did surpise me because he actually bought these toys that I'm like REALLY WOW... they are some sleeves for him to wear and this one that he wears and the other side is suppose to go on me and vibrate.. ALL and good BUT he is yet to use them... and so I am in the same spot.. As for Howard stating he might be scared that I might get pregnant well no.. and we have 4 kids yes but 3 here on Earth we lost our first little girl to SIDS last year and Gabi our last little baby was our blessing. We are not planning on any babies on the moment as I KNOW we can't afford it and I have my own Stay at Home Business I do to get things for the house.. Anyway.. When I got back I doubt we would have had sex if ONCE AGAIN I didn't take the step into starting it.. and honestly I am tired of doing so.. I did 2 days in a row.. Monday night and Tuesday.. and nothing since though I have wanted.. I know if I tell him he will say Oh Gabi was there (we are to move her crib into our room as she use to sleep in her bassinet and is too big now for it) We are moving the crib today but STILL the baby is not there ALL the time and yes I know he is tired from all his work but it just makes me think WOW a game is more interesting then me.. And its been 3 weeks since he last saw me and he is yet to make me think he really missed me.. OH well I guess this is the life I will lead.. I love him dearly.. just wished he have shown more of him missing me but instead its back to the same thing of me just wondering.. I do thank all who have taken the time in writing to me and trying to help.... it means alot to me.. at least someone is paying attention to me! LOL

Thank you to all who has answered..but I have all of that.. I know he is soooo very tired.. and he needs to rest and when he should at times he will do something else though he knows he is pushing himself and then when I "need" him he is to sleepy and as for me pleasuring myself.. well Shoot my hands are wore out! lol I don't know what it is but its like my sex drive has sky rocketed.. and I need to cum at least twice a day with him or not and WHAT kicks my butt is that he will DOWNLOAD all this porn WHY? I'm right HERE? WILLING AND MORE THEN ABLE?? and I ask him Why and he says he doesn't know? of course that does all to bring my self esteem down and I've asked him is it cause I'm not what I use to look like before physically?( being I've had 4 babies now)I don't know??? Also when we have had sex yes he's come more then once.. but there that darn issue of my evil little sex drive.. I WANT MORE.. it really gets on my nerves because I KNOW hubby wants to please me but feels like he can't as I've heard him talking to himself when he goes into the bathroom to clean up but its ok because I will play with myself and tell him its ok and tell him to lay down night to me and which he does & falls asleep... and as for telling him that I want he to play with his hand I've done it the night before we had sex he finished and all of a sudden he was so tired again I took him had and told him to make me cum like he did the night before but he couldn't he feel asleep... and so I let hmm sleep while I stayed awake.. then 2 hrs later ( I couldn't sleep) I tried to wake him up and again told him to make me cum Please?? he looked at me put his hand between my legs and fell asleep again... then his alarm went of 45 mins. later.. and I looked at him but he didn't do anything.. .and left and I've been using my little toy ever since... I feel like a freak and really wish my sex drive would just calm down? anyone know what the HECK is going on with me?? I don't want to make my hubby feel llike he can't please me .. Thats the problem I love the way he makes me feel... I think does it have to do with that myth that a woman's sex drive will increase when they hit 30 or something?? My husband's 29 ?? I don't know.. I am so sad as today is my last night here until 3 week as Me and the kids are going on vac. that my mom paid for.. and all I wish is for him to tell me I want to have you before you go.. BUT I know that if I don't look for him he's not going to and I will leave and have to wait 3 weeks for any sex.. I've even though maybe there could be someone else.. just for a sec. but I know he loves me too much and when would he be able to since he talks to me everyday and I can Chrip him anytime "NEXTEL" but I still wonder you know.. and as for different times for sex .. I DO TRY as well not just at night when the kids go to bed.. Our 6 month old will wake up at 7am on the weekday he's usually home and DD will take a nap by 9 and I'll go and look for him he'll either be on the computer or playing his XBOX and I'll say why don't you go to sleep.. I will in a min.. and this will go on for like 2 hrs then he will finally go to take a nap and DD will wake up.. by this time I've feed her and her 2 brothers and then put her back in her bouncer and play Baby Einsteing and have min to sneek into the bedroom lock the door begin me and go and try to get a quickie... or I'll just give him a BJ.. all in all I just wish he's take charge just once.. I've told him I'm not fraglie and I even asked him what's your fantasy but he says he doesn't really have none.. COME THE F*** ON.. I don't believe it.. NOT ONE MINUTE.. of course I think I know what it is.. yes every man's dream... the 2 chick thing.. I am or was Bi VERY much in college but after kids that part of me has be away.. I was thinking even if I were to try that I don't think he'd be able to handle it cause he would finish to quick and it would be me and the other girl! Which I know if I were to open that Pandora's box it would not be a good thing.. as I know I would look for more females... My husband is the only person I've ever tried to be faithful too... TRIED because I have when we first dated did mess with another man.. and I try to keep that monster at bay and I've done so for the past 7 yrs. I guess that's what I am SO AFRAID of that my sex drive is going to take the best of me which I know it wouldn't be another man because I only want my husband but another female... I DON'T KNOW now I am just rambling see its just my sex drive talking again.. HELLPP its 8 am right now if someone is on PLEASE HELP ME.. He'll be home at 10:30 and then we have to go to the store to get a couple of more things I need for the kids for the trip for tomorrow... I've asked him a million times will he miss me and all he says is of course I'll miss you it would be nice if he'd tell me I am going to miss you first... OH I AM SUCH A MESS! THANK YOU FOR LETTING me Ramble for so long.. and thank you for any advice.. (sorry for the type o's baby on lap-was typing with 1 hand!)

Ok I don't know what your hubby took but can you send some my way for my hubby! THATS ALL I WANT.. see my hubby KNOWS I like it when he talks but all I hear is the same thing over and over again I could even say what he's about to say even before he say it.. and when he trys to say something else I don't feel as if its really him saying it cause he means it... Well I am very happy for you... well of I go to see a sleeping man...

I seem to not get enough of what I need..... First of all he is the best husband a woman could ever wish for he gives me everything (besides the sex thing) everything we need (me and the kids) he works 2 jobs which is prob. why he's so tired all the time since he doesn't rest... BUT its just I feel like I'm the one chasing after him though he tries very much to please me.. I still want more and though he tries (sometimes he does give me all I need but its more like 2 out of every 10 times) he will finish and can't and finishes fast at that... I wish he would be more wild but he isn't I'd like him to be more aggresive but he isn't and when he has ever tries he finishes to fast.. Like tonight (reason why I came and bought some stuff and am typin on the board) we fooled around he finished but I was no wear close so I was left hot and bothered and he fell asleep and saying I'm so tired.. I let him rest for an hr or so and went back to see if anything but no... Last night he finished twice and I wasn't finished and so I lend his hand and OH MY LORD his hand did what I wanted him to do.. I was looking for that TONIGHT.. even if I didn't get him... at least a hand???lol.. so I guess this post is more like a vent... am I the only hot blooded wife out there.. and I want to be with him even more because I am going away on Monday for 3 weeks with the kids... but he is sleeping he says he'll miss me.. REALLY??? He has to have cateract surgey on Tuesday which I am upset because I wouldn't be here.. He is a good and wonderful man only if he would be a bad boy for once.. YES I've asked and told him it would be so awesome but when he's tired it seems so fake cause he's not a bad boy.. what can I do?? Buy toys and pray for the best????