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  1. Trust me there's nothing wrong with you. My last boyfriend was cheating on me too and I loved him dearly. Right ow, just focus on yourself. That's what I'm doing right now. I'm sorry you got cheated on hun. Not all men are the same. I'm sure one day you'll meet someone, just focus on you right now.
  2. I've been single since 2016, this time I plan on being single and want to focus on myself until I get committed in a serious relationship. For once I'm actually enjoying being single. I can focus on my writing.
  3. I've never squirted myself and I have a hard time having a orgasm, I am not sure why that is. I think sometimes I think too much or I am simply not relaxed enough. Hopefully one day I will have an experience though! I'm glad you got to experience this with your girlfriend.
  4. I still would like a serious relationship and be happy with someone. If all possible of course. For about two years now I've been slowly working on myself and doing things for myself for once. This is something I needed. To work on my confidence and try to get some of my happiness back, since I was suffering with depression for a few years. Sometimes I lay awake at night thinking that nobody is interested in relationships anymore. I'm trying to think positive about this and just keep focusing on myself. I don't want to seem desperate or needy, that's not attractive. My mind just wanders off and thinks a lot about things. It's just my thoughts on this and wanted to see what others had to say about this. Whatever happens, I will still remain positive. 😎
  5. Yes... something happened to me as a child and it haunted me for years. This is why I'm so careful when it comes to sex and suffered with PTSD for years because of it. Therapy helped me a lot. Nobody deserves to go through this.
  6. I just recently heard about this. I've never tried it. It would be interesting though.
  7. I don't think it's degrading at all. It also depends on my mood too. In the end you can always just wash it off. It's important to let the other person know you're cumming through, so they know what's coming. Everyone has their own opinion about this. Just do what makes her feel comfortable.
  8. Hello and welcome! You'll find this place very helpful. Don't be afraid to ask questions and share things. Everyone is very friendly here!
  9. No I don't think I can separate the two after my experience. Feeling's were still there for my ex boyfriend and things ended up getting way too messy. I was still in love with him and having sex with him was a huge mistake, so I don't think I can separate the two. Lesson learned.
  10. I've been single for about a year now. I'm very shy and quiet, so I think men might not approach me because of that reason. Just walk up to people and speak, I'm sure you'll get a date sometime soon. Hang in there!
  11. I haven't been able to do it yet, I've read about it though. I'm sure it will happen one day for me, haha! That was very exciting on reading about it.
  12. I'm looking for a good vibrator massage wand. I never bought myself one before and I'd like to hear your opinions on which one to get first. I saw one on Too Timid, it's a pink wand. Lux Wand. That's the one that I came across that interested me. Right now it's on sale. It seems to have some pretty good reviews on it. Does anyone else own it? If you do, please tell me if it's worth the price. Thank you!
  13. Welcome to the forum and I'm sure you'll get lots of advice here.
  14. I'm ready for this kind of relationship, I just needed someone to explain to me about his disorder because I never met anyone who has this kind of disorder before. I have a friend who's bipolar and she opened up to me about it little by little. Finally I asked her in person to fully explain to me how she felt so I have a better understanding about it and I picked up on how on her depressed days she didn't really want to talk to anyone, slept in her bed all day long and barely wanted to eat anything and then her moods changed and I picked up on it. I never said anything to her though. One day she was laying bed and crying and I told her to try to get out of bed, take a shower and maybe we can just go to the movies. I told her just to try. She took a half hour to decide and finally we went out to the movies. I know little things about his disorder, I just don't know everything about it. I have noticed that he's very very blunt and he knows i was abused before and he did say once to me, "I'm sorry. Please don't take what I say to heart. I'm not trying to hurt you. I'm just blunt and tend to say a lot of crazy things sometimes. I even say things at work as well." I've been given him a few days for space and surprisingly enough he texted me through Facebook messenger. He told me he's not really a phone person, if I need to talk to him though he tells me to call. He wants me to get a phone so we can text each other so we don't always have to talk through Facebook messenger. I agree that's he's really hurt and betrayed by being cheated on. I totally get that because I was cheated on too and it hurt me deeply. However it may be a different bit different from him and I don't mind telling him that I care for him and that I won't hurt him. He hasn't gotten upset around me yet about that kind of thing. Only once it happened and I ended up hugging him and told him that he's all I wanted. I'm a very patient person, I just get very confused easily and anytime I'm confused or don't understand something I get frustrated and keep trying to figure it out. If you could maybe link me some articles about his disorder or anything that could help me out in the near future that would be great. As for now I just plan on seeing where it goes and talking to him. He invited me to his place again on the 13th and told me in the near future he wants to request some days off to come and stay at my place. I was totally not even expecting this at all. Right now I think he's taking it slow with me until he completely knows for sure that I won't hurt him. Thanks again for all your responses, I just didn't honestly know anything about his disorder completely.
  15. It's been a long time since I let anyone in since I was abused by my last boyfriend. For the longest time I had so much anger and sadness inside me. I actually hated men, all men and didn't trust any of them after being abused emotionally, verbally and mentally. Now I no longer feel that way. Than someone came back into my life again who means the world to me and ever since him and I made love and we got close, he's been acting very weird, distant, won't return any of my messages on Facebook messenger. Now I'm leaving him alone and giving him space. He has asperger's and I understand there's times where he likes to be alone and not want to talk to anyone. He told me he felt extremely close to me when him and I had sex. He also admitted to me that he cares deeply for me and that he likes me. I see love in his eyes though. I let him into my world, he opened up to me and he wanted me to open up to him completely and I did. For the first time in the longest time I felt extremely happy and anytime he sent me messages I actually smiled and laughed and no guy has ever made me feel those feelings before. Now I feel like he's driving me crazy, but in a good way cause I'm deeply in love with him. I told him I'll be patient with him and I am. It's just right now I feel as if it's something I did to make him disappear and not return any of my messages. My friends told me to leave him alone and to wait for him to message me and my closest friend told me to wait a week and then just send him a message saying "Hello". At this point I have no idea what to do and I'm very very confused. To be honest with everyone I have a learning disability and it takes me awhile before I can understand things. Especially different kind of disorders, college work, Math, etc. There's times where I sometimes get frustrated at myself. Once I fully understand something though I'm no longer confused. When I was younger I remember crying and calling myself stupid a lot of the time and thinking how I could never do anything right. I'm no longer ashamed of my learning disability which is good. He told me I'm the first person he's had sex with in two years and I believe him because I know him very well and he's an extremely picky person by nature. For the longest time I kept asking myself, "Why me? Why am I the first one he had sex with?" A lot of people think he's in love with me and that he's scared of getting hurt again after his last girlfriend cheated on him. At this point, I honestly don't know what to think.
  16. I lost a friend to suicide, I know. It's very upsetting for people to read this and it's taken me a very long time to even talk about this at all. This guy was a friend to me though and nothing more. He had depression problems and things got bad for him, I always supported him. My friend seemed far away from me towards the end and he went to get help, once he came out of the hospital, he seemed happy. It was all fake though. I got a bad feeling in my gut and when he died I was depressed for months. A lot of people abandoned me, including some my friends. When I met this guy I'm mentioning I opened up to him, not all at once though. I made sure I gave it time. Believe I knew he cared for me when I got a Kidney Stone Infection and he was pretty much the only person in town who was talking to me. My mother sent him a text as I was in surgery and as I got out, she told me that he would visit me later on that night. The minute he got in the room, his hand slid into mine and asked me how I was feeling. Whole entire time he kept holding my hand. Second time I believe he seemed a little reserved and I immediately thought that I did something wrong and I got sad. As I got out he explained he had a disorder and how sometimes he can act a bit off, weird, want alone time and not want to talk to anyone. I remember him saying, I don't know why I get like this, I just do, he seemed sad as he said it and immediately I told him that I understand and be patient with him. For the last three days, just like he said, he didn't really talk to me or anything. People were assuming he didn't care for me or was trying to mess with me. Than today he mentioned to me since I moved away that he like me to stay at his house yet again and he'd like to see me again. I moved away and live two hrs away from him. Something is telling me that if he didn't care he would have moved on by now and found somebody else and not even be wasting his time with me. He knew about my friend and at point I believe he thought I was in love with my friend and was still wishing he was here so him and I could be together. My friend who died was great, I didn't love him though. I cared for him as a friend though. Just this morning I just sent him a simple message on Facebook telling him, I just wanted you to tell you that I miss you. Have a good day today. I'm realizing with this guy saying very very little makes him feel at ease. When I express myself with a lot of emotions, I think it puts a lot of added pressure to him. I don't think he's used to expressing emotions at all. He's a very logical person at nature. His actions does say otherwise though. Especially when I'm there. I woke up one morning to eat breakfast and he was still sleeping, I just remember looking at him and smiling. Once I got up, he woke up a few minutes later and asked me how I slept. He looked so peaceful sleeping, I don't think I've ever loved anyone as much as I love him. I dated guys over the years and a lot of them hurt me, cheated on me and wasn't honest which is something I want always. He's a very honest person, logical and smart. I love listening to the way he explains things, I find it sexy!!! I think I'm just going to go with the flow on this relationship and just take it easy, let him take the lead and relax. I know I can always speak up and talk to him if I ever need too. Afterall he's a very honest person and he loves communication. In time I'm sure emotions will come out. Thanks for everyone's advice!!
  17. He hasn't said the words "I love you" yet. I said it once and I could tell he was kinda nervous so I never said it again, I stopped myself and thought maybe I'm jumping way too soon and ahead of myself and just go with the flow which I've been doing now. We see each other, I stay at his house, we go out to the movies and he bought my ticket and snacks at the concession stand. If I'm upset he cares and hugs me and makes sure I'm okay. When he kisses me I can feel something. Sometimes I can't stop thinking when I was in his room and I was wearing a dress and he came up behind me, brush my hair out the way and started kissing me, my neck and was so passionate with me. Normally I had boyfriend's and I usually get really freaky. Than there's him and everything is different. It's so different that it kinda freaks me out. He's sensual, he's passionate, he looks into my eyes as he loves me, nothing comes out of his mouth though. Than one day as I was at his house for the week, he said something and none of my other boyfriend's said this, "I feel really close to you." It came out of left field and as he said this I was looking up at him and again he was looking into my eyes. Something is telling me to not look too deeply about this, other people told me that he's just pulling my chain. When I look at him though he's honest and he never lies to me. I wanted to ask him what he meant, it ended up slipping my mind because we had a good weekend together. Now I think he's kinda freaking out or something and I told him last night if he needs his space I'll respect it. He also has Asperger's Syndrome and told me that sometimes he likes to be alone and I respect his wishes. On the outside it doesn't seem like he does, when I'm around him though I do notice a few things, I never speak of it though because he makes me happy. So am I looking to deeply about this? Should I just drop it and leave it alone? Is there a meaning behind those words? Advice needed please!!
  18. I started having sex again recently and now randomly during the day I think of him and instantly get a shiver over my body and moan softly to myself. All I think of him is kissing my neck, kissing me, kissing my breasts, breathing into my ear and when I'm holding onto him as were having sex. He looks so deeply into my eyes as I'm moaning and once he said out loud, "Omg you look so beautiful!" In the end I just end up kissing him harder and start dirty talking out loud. One thing I realize is that he's not much of a dirty talker, he only does it ever once in awhile. I'm starting to love how sensual he is and when he does dirty talk me, it instantly arouses me. It comes when I'm least expecting it. We communicate very well with each other and were both very playful. He's even bit me on my neck once and he's never ever done this before and I loved it. After he did it he looked at me thinking it hurt me and I told him, "Wow I loved that you did that." All he did was smile but he didn't do it again though. Think he's teasing me and exploring my entire body by the things he does and seeing my reaction to things. I must say this and I'll be honest, he beats every guy I've ever been with in bed. My boyfriend now is so funny, loving and loves to joke around. He makes me laugh a lot, but once we get to the bedroom he's an entirely different person. It's as if he will do anything to make me happy. I even remember saying to him, When I make love you, I can tell that it's real. I actually feel love. and he responded, Yeah cause I actually care. What kind of guys have you been dating anyways? And sadly all the guys I dated in my past didn't put their all into me. I'm so happy I found him.
  19. I just wanted to post this up. I've been so scared lately to make love cause I thought that I would get some kind of bladder infection. The last guy that I was with kept giving them to me and in the end he blamed me and told me to find someone to deal with my infections. I've never had any kind of infection before. After him I took a long break from dating anyone cause I keep attracting wrong kind of men into my life. I've finally been working on my self esteem and trying to get by in my life without any guy in my life and turned down dates even cause I wanted to completely concentrate on myself. Which is good!! Finally I reconnected with someone again and we've gotten close. He's somebody that I can trust. Finally I started to pick up on him flirting with me and things been slowly building up. However I'm keeping up my end of the bargain and maintaining doing things for myself. My question is when I finally did make love to my friend, I didn't get any bladder infection at all. The more I think about it I think it's cause I had precancer on my cervix and just got it removed. I'm not sure. It was very painful for me when I had sex with my friend tonight. Sort of felt as if I was losing my virginity again and than I remember that it might be painful for me at times cause of the surgery. Good thing he went slow and he was very supportive and understanding. Before hand I told him how I was paranoid about the bladder infections, which I was. The only guy I've ever gotten one from was from the last guy I dated. Got STD's tested for everything and everything came back negative. So could precancer have something to do with my bladder infections? If you're not sure. It's okay. Just wondered about this.
  20. If there's one thing that I love it has to be teasing, I love the heavy breathing on my neck, the soft kisses on my cheek down to my neck than to my lips. There's something about this that does it for me. I love it rough at times don't get me wrong. I'm at my absolute weakest when the teasing is present and I love it when the men I'm seeing are taking there sweet time with me and pampering me up. Am I the only on here? Does anyone else love teasing?
  21. I can't seem to ride my boyfriend, I'm a lot taller than him and every time I try to put it in, his dick ends up popping out. It saddens me that it won't stay in, now I feel like I'm bigger than him is the reason why. He's smaller than me and I want this to be able to work but every time I try the same thing keeps happening. How come it won't stay in? Am I doing something wrong? Has anyone else had this same problem before? What can I do?
  22. I'm medicated and I'm noticing that my orgasmns are being held back a little bit each time I'm masturbating and it's really frustrating me sometimes. There's other times when I'm close to my period I'm not sexually aroused at all and I won't even be able to get off at all. Is this normal at all? Anytime I'm close to my period I won't want to mess around with myself around with myself at all. I'll want to mess around but I'll be way too moody to even want to even do anything. Guess I just want to know if this is normal from a woman's perspective. Both things are bothering me right now and I really need some advice. What should I do? Do you have any advice for me. Thanks!
  23. Welcome to the Forum! I hope you enjoy your time on here!
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