No toys or dildos, huh? Well, a shower head massager works well.... when I was little, I would find small object... slightly soft, slightly stiff... and kinda squishy... like a stress ball (or something similar, but softer if it is too much pressure). I would take that object and put it in my undies and rub back and forth on pillows or mounded up blankets. Also, maybe go out and buy an oral-B pulsar tooth brush (non rechargeable)... they work as great mini vibes (for vagina or clit) There are some GREAT articles on here about masturbation. Try reading up a bit! (by the way, vibrators might seem scary, but you can get small ones... there is a category for beginner toys... rather cheap and small... or try the freebies! The little rabbit vibe up now might be of use to you! ~.^