Oh honey there is no reason to feel dirty at all. This is a wonderful place with wonderful people that will help in any way they can. I tryed anal sex for the first time not long ago. Something that my dh had been trying to get me to do for years. At first I was very worried as you are but the more I relaxed the more I was able to enjoy myself. My advice would be go very slow, use lots of lube, lots of foreplay and try to relax. Please listen to Mikayla and Howard they know what they are talking about! sexyganny