Ready, I actually am in a very similar situation. This is a man I have spoken with for over 4 years. I have shared experiences with him that I have shared with no one else--ever. But his job requires him to be overseas somewhat frequently, and training elsewhere when he's in the States. I have had the same job for a very long time, and I'm good at what I do. Plus, my kids are almost raised, and I can't uproot them at this time. There are other issues, but I'm not going to list them all here. Right now, today, I would give almost anything to have him walk in my front door. However, I honestly don't know if I will ever see him in this life.........