When u miss someone so much it hurts? I miss him. I really do. Today was a hard day. 1 of many. My kids are the devil. As I am writing to you, my 4 year old is screaming upstairs at the top of his lungs. MOMMYYYYYY MOMMYYYYYYYY. WoW just wow. Hunny I need your arms to hold me. Lay next to me at night. I need to shut out the world and put me first. Thats so unheard of right. ME first. 7 months no break at all. Not even one. I hate that I started this daycare. I hate it. I hate that I hate waking up everyday to face another hellish day. My kids are so bad. My family depends on me way to much (MOM). When is it ok for me to need to talk and vent and just cry. Oh lets call her to vent she is always there for us, She will know what to do. Ask her she will do it. She never says no. FUCK MAN I NEED TO GET IT ALL OUT 2 just once. I need to be the weak one just once.